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pandorasVise

Joined January 2012

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Weight History

Start Weight

202.0 lb

Lost so far: 1.0 lb

Current Weight

201.0 lb
Performance: gaining 0.3 lb a week

Goal Weight

160.0 lb

Still to go: 41.0 lb

Hmmm, bio, bio bio. okay here it goes:

Hi I am Patty, PattyAnne to my family because there are a lot of Patricks and Patricias. I am a graphic designer, do webpages, advertising, business card, branding so on and so forth as a freelancer. My weekend gig is a zip-line tour guide up in Maine and yes we do that in the winter too. I am also a personal trainer and a group fitness trainer. I fight bareknuckle kyokushin karate, US champ twice and 2nd in the world. I teach beginner karate and kickboxing. With all that I am fat, it's true. I do have a lot of muscle so I may be able to carry my 200 pounds alot better than most because I am active, and as a general rule I dont overeat. But I have an eating disorder. I am a binge eater. For the last year and a half, depression has gotten a hold of me and I am up 30 pounds. my clothes don't fit. I am going to get out of this slump though, hopefully with the help of my friends, online and offline.

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pandorasVise's Cookbook

cals: 312kcal | fat: 16.52g | carbs: 21.92g | prot: 19.26g

Corned Beef and Cabbage Soup

A St. Patrick Day special soup that can be enjoyed all year round.

cals: 106kcal | fat: 10.19g | carbs: 1.19g | prot: 2.90g

Raspberry Cheesecake Squares

These low carb cheesecake squares are very good.

cals: 264kcal | fat: 21.39g | carbs: 3.45g | prot: 14.02g

Ricotta and Fresh Herb Frittata

An absolutely delicious dish that's very easy to make.

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pandorasVise's Latest Posts

Confession to Strangers or Trying to get out of Depression
Thanks everyone for the well wishes, it does mean a lot to know that there are others like me. So after I got all this off my chest to you good people, I felt better right away. Some of the weight went off my shoulders.

The husband is seeing the VA and he is on zoloft for the last few months. I don't have insurance, so that is not an option for me.

I tried my best to get stuff done today. Still working on the studio but I got alot accomplished up there today, probably be able to paint there this week (working all weekend) then I went in to the dojo early and got to train with the kids. The kids are so much fun and where else do you get to hit children and it is considered appropriate?

Work tomorrow and I am packing a lunch. I work ziplines and if I have no tours to take out, I am going skiing. A friend asked me to teach him how to ski, should be fun.

posted 29 Nov 2012, 19:57

Confession to Strangers or Trying to get out of Depression
I know you don't know me. I don't know you either. You probably wont read this whole post, but if you do, please comment. This is a selfish post. Purely for me and my healing process. There is no other place I can write something with total anonymity and maybe get some feedback from real people who might want to help without the emotional investment.

So here's the story:

Once upon a time, in the not so distant past, I lost a ton of weight. 70 pounds to be exact. I generally followed a primal lifestyle along with paul mckenna techniwues. To be truthful, I followed paul mckenna and found my food choices were primal. As I started losing weight, I took up karate and tennis, just for fun. The fun in karate turned out to be talent and after only a year, this housewife, aged 39 at the time, mom to six became top competitor, winning a few championships in bareknuckle knockdown karate. But I have hit a speed bump, well that speed bump is more like Everest.

For the last year and a half, I have been fighting with my inner demons. I have been so depressed. The husband hasn't been working since he came home from deployment (iraq) a year and a half ago. I have been struggling to feed a family of 5 on low pay and unemployment. Christmas for the kids is going to be lean once again. The oldest daughter just went off to boot camp for the air force. Lots going on in my life, seemingly none of it good. I feel like I have been just walking in place, and even taking steps back. I have gained back 30 of those pounds I lost, mostly through binge eating.

I have no drive at all. I have the hardest time to get started doing the things that I enjoy and find myself watching TV or sleeping when I am not working. I dont even clean the house that much anymore.

I am trying to take steps to get me to enjoy life again. I set up a corner in the attic so I can start painting again. I am trying to get back into training karate, maybe even fighting again. The problem is the initial start. I don't feel like starting a painting, I don't feel like going to train, but once I start, I don't want to stop. I feel so good. What can I do to get me to get off the couch? What do you do that makes you happy?

I want to be happy again

PS go ahead and friend me, i need freinds

posted 29 Nov 2012, 09:01

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