notjune1's Journal, 04 April 2014

Yesterday was NOT good. I reached for a Sonic fish burger and tater tots. Today it was a muffalatta. Emotional eating rearing its ugly head and I am trying to figure out a way to handle it...and the emotions behind it.

Long story short, I found out my biological father is probably not the man I thought was, and the man who is probably my bio dad has died. It was alot to take in for one day, and then dealing with my maternal parents (i have 2 moms--long story there too)has been a bitch. It's been an ordeal.

I have been on emotional overload for the past 30 hours and I am not handling everything as well as I need to be. And if I had slipped with one meal once I would be okay, but Ive done it for 2 meals now and I am really bothered by the fact that I have once again reached for food in times of emotional overload. I am worried about how I'm going to feel at dinner. I am worried I will get overwhelmed again and make yet another poor eating choice.

Anybody have tips or words of wisdom to not make me feel so shitty or that would help me here? And no fussing at me for what I ate, okay? I know it was bad, and I cant Un-eat it, and I am already beating myself up pretty bad about it right now.

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Just know that with every minute that passes a new opportunity to do better arises. Make dinner before you need to eat/get hungry, that way your choice will be the healthy meal you have already prepared. Tomorrow is a new day. You've got this!! **HUGS** 
04 Apr 14 by member: KimReed
Well, at least you're recognizing and admitting that you have a problem. Now you just need to find something else to do instead. Go for a walk/run, get a punching bag, something to release that negative energy and boost those good chemicals in the brain. You can do it! 
04 Apr 14 by member: Seagrava
Its OK, you will be OK. I don't wish to diminish your situation but I too have fallen off the wagon with a similar ordeal. Just remember this its OK to mess up once in a while you wouldn't be human if you didn't. Once you get over the stress of falling into old habits take some time for yourself. A hot shower and some primping time worked for me. Put your mind at ease and remember your still OK. Just get back up brush yourself off and plan your next nonfood related activity to distract you from eating. I am sorry you're having a hard time but you will be OK. 
04 Apr 14 by member: Goatherder67
A long walk or bike ride always helps, and make sure you turn off your cell phone.  
04 Apr 14 by member: sbeth801
I've got an appointment for a haircut after work and I'm hoping to de-compress some this evening. Have training tomorrow, but tomorrow night and with any luck on Sunday, I am planning on some down time. The last few weeks have been rough, but yesterday and today have made me crazy. I've got a weird grief-like thing going on, and I'm trying to sort it all out. 
04 Apr 14 by member: notjune1
First off, a BIG hug to you notjune. The grief makes perfect sense. You're dealing with multiple losses and lots of uncertainty. Makes sense to turn to something that has always been comforting in the past. I'm glad to hear you've put down time in your schedule. IMO that's crucial and key. As far as the comfort of food, are there any healthy things that you really enjoy that you can plan to make available? Just an example but I've been drinking a lot of chai and herbal tea lately. A little stevia and a bit of almond milk make it almost like a chai latte. Even the ACT of making and drinking a cup of tea can be calming to me. There is no 'correct' way to grieve. Just care for yourself in the same way you'd care for someone you love A LOT.  
04 Apr 14 by member: Vickie 5966
Journal, it helps me. Sometimes I open microsoft word and just type away about absolutely everything. I cant tell you how many journals I have typed and not shared because I thought they were too intense. Running is my other stress reliever, any type of cardio will do 
04 Apr 14 by member: Annabelle3117
Agree. Working out has been my new way to relieve stress. Put all your anger, depression, etc. into it and get those endorphins going. You'll at least feel better about yourself and the things you have control over instead of binging (or just eating poorly) to deal with everything. Sorry for all your worries! We are here for you to vent! 
04 Apr 14 by member: Kiki8123
sending you a hug !!!! Remember that regardless of who your bio parents are, you are still YOU, the person you have always been, and YOU are the important piece in the puzzle as you work to make improvements in your life, to live the way you want. I think you will be less likely to sabotage yourself when you remember this point.  
04 Apr 14 by member: erwinwarrior83
1) Forgive yourself 2) Hug and congratulate yourself - you're aware that you're eating emotionally and it will not only NOT solve your emotional issues, it will pile more on with the guilt you're feeling over eating something that's not bringing your body the best nutrition 3) will share a few of my go-to Mantra's when I want to chew my face off. First: When I am hungry, I will eat what I love. When I am sad, I will remember I am loved. You are loved here. Journal, vent, rant, PM, whatever you need. What you've eaten wasn't that horrid and if it were, well, one meal at a time, kiddo. You're doing fine.  
04 Apr 14 by member: FullaBella
A long walk in the park or by the river helps me destress 
05 Apr 14 by member: namramn1
I don't think anybody here has a right to sit in judgement of you since we have all been there. Yes you do need a hug and you need to forgive yourself. That is alot of stuff on your plate. what I do since I admit I am a stress eater is ask myself why I want to eat it and then I tell myself that isn't what I really want and then look for something healthy and yes I have fallen off the wagon but I picked myself up and dust myself off and start over.  
05 Apr 14 by member: cyd69
I really blew it yesterday too. Haven't done that for a while. And I didn't even have nearly the excuse you did. The old me would say, Well, that's that. I blew it. Never mind the diet. But, this is the new me that says, Hey. One day. No big. Learn from it and move on. My goal of looking and feeling my best is still my goal. And yes, if I had taken a walk or worked out or even asked myself why I wanted the sugary things I ate, that would have helped. You can do it.  
05 Apr 14 by member: hkjellybean123
I really blew it yesterday too. Haven't done that for a while. And I didn't even have nearly the excuse you did. The old me would say, Well, that's that. I blew it. Never mind the diet. But, this is the new me that says, Hey. One day. No big. Learn from it and move on. My goal of looking and feeling my best is still my goal. And yes, if I had taken a walk or worked out or even asked myself why I wanted the sugary things I ate, that would have helped. You can do it.  
05 Apr 14 by member: hkjellybean123
The weekend wasnt much better. My mom was alternately super passive aggressive and ugly when she stopped by (yea..didnt even call-she knew I'd tell her not to come over) but I did much better this weekend, and did NOT reach for food to deal saturday and sunday. I did clean my house like my life depended on it, while listening to good music and I did a 3 mile walk yesterday to get myself back on my working out schedule. (Sunday is one of my regularly scheduled workout days and I have been slacking). I hope to see some positive changes this week. 
07 Apr 14 by member: notjune1
well done. congrats on your self control and i feel walking is a great exercise when you dont feel like doing anything 
08 Apr 14 by member: namramn1

     
 

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