miteslur's Journal, 10 November 2008

God will not give you more than you can handle. Have FAITH and BELIEVE in YOURSELF. YOU .... yes you, can DO THIS. How about a nice cup of tea?? =D xoxo 

Try not to look at the big picture of everything that's on your plate all at once. Focus on what you need to for the moment and it might help you to keep from feeling overwhelmed. I am reminded of the Marianne Williamson quote: "Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. " Know that you have the power to accomplish anything you put your mind to! 

Sometimes things look worse than they are. I know you are a intelligent woman and you will be able to sort out whatever is stressing you. My husband tells me that I make deciision on two levels.. one is a decision of the heart...and another is a decision of the mind. Sometimes we have to really think and separate the two, to find the one that is the REAL solution. It's like when I want to give money to my youngest that is a college student and help her out more... and my HEART says send her money... but my HEAD says I need to be careful not to overspend from my own funds and not to help her so much that she expects it. So I trust you to make sound decisions, whether they are from your heart or your head! You can handle it, no reason to stress... you will make it through because you are a capable, strong, intelligent woman.  

Thanks guys. I appreciate your words of wisdom. =) On a different, and not so different subject: I learned something about myself this last Friday night. I went to a discussion group for the book entitled "The Power of Now" by Eckhart Tolle. During this class we did an exercise that basically allowed our body to respond to statements or questions, showing us (supposedly) what our true thoughts are via our body's responses. I was told to say "I believe in myself"...and "I trust in myself". I wasn't too surprised to see that my body didn't have much of a response to either statement. It was then and there that I truly realized how serious my own self doubt is. I believe that my own self doubt has caused me to hit a wall where my weight loss is concerned. I am still waiting to hear the magic words to make it 'click' inside my head that I CAN lose weight to my ultimate goal. For whatever reason, I lack self belief. In the back of my mind there is this little small voice that always says 'you won't do it and you know it...you can give yourself all the pep talks in the world, but you know that you won't be able to lose all that weight.'. It's like I haven't been able to reach my 'true' inner self to convince me that I CAN do this! All I can figure is that it's something stemming from my child hood and I haven't worked through it yet. I'm hoping that through my journey of obtaining a bachelor's degree, I will some how discover something about myself to obtain that trust in myself that I CAN do anything I set my mind to. Maybe that is why God has been prompting me to take this journey. Maybe it's a journey of self discovery via a path I've never taken before. Today I was listening to Joyce Meyer, again. She reminded me that there isn't anything we can't do. God has given us all that we need to accomplish all taht we choose. It's there. All we have to do is exercise it and use it. Develop the muscles. I like that thought. It's comforting. Tonight I am going to the gym. I told myself this morning, 'you have a gym membership that you pay for every month! you have it, so use it! there may come a day that you won't have it anymore and you'll regret not using it while you had it.' So, I'm going and am looking forward to it. Okay, I think I've rambled enough to feel better now. ;0) 

Amen, amen, AMEN! YOU HAVE TO DO THIS!!! #1. For YOU, #2. For Cierra. You will GAIN sooo much more than a degree, financial stability, job opportunities,... you will GAIN OODLES of the Confidence that you DESERVE. That you NEED to show Cierra how to do and find, as well. You will NO LONGER need to HIDE, from anything, after this!! =D xoxo 

miteslur, you just proved that you are indeed a sensitive, caring, very intelligent woman. You will make it through whatever you have to do ...to get to the other side. God's peace be with you.