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I am doing my best not to be ticked off at the scale this morning and remember SIMPLE MATH!!! LOL!!! Seriously I'm not really ticked off just slightly annoyed. I know exactly how much I ate yesterday and how much I exercised and even with slight errors in calculations it really isn't possible that I gained 6 tenths of a lb. Oh bother. I do this to myself all the time. I get close to the bottom part of my range and I start doing the math in my head about how many more pounds would it be to 175, 172, 167???? How much less will I weigh tomorrow morning? Surely I'll be down another pound ... blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. Gee, do you think there is just a touch of obsessiveness there?
Tis only a number and simple math will prevail. Probably all the cortisol I activated 'overthinking' everything last night, laying in bed, listening to hubby and the dog snoring caused the fluctuation up!! LOL!!
Well I forgot to turn off my alarm clock, even though I am not working today, so I am up early. Usually by now though I have exercised, showered, dressed and am having breakfast before dashing off to work. Instead I am still in my robe, enjoying a cup of coffee and taking my time. I am really trying to let myself see the silver lining in my forced furlough cloud. Frankly, it is what it is and being bummed out and stressed out about it isn't going to be useful. So ... I know that in every crisis there is also opportunity so I am working on wondering what my opportunities are in this current 'crisis' ...
So far so good on the root canal. It is a little 'throbby' but nothing more than it was before I had the procedure done yesterday. The assistant who anesthetized me did an unbelievably good job. Obviously that tooth and the surrounding gum has been quite tender. I felt NOTHING when she anesthetized me. Amazing. I've never had that experience before and I have spent my fair share of time in dentist offices over the years.
Erika's half marathon is this weekend ... let's all cheer her on!!! Go Erika!!! I am so impressed by my fellow fatsecreters who have taken up running ... so impressed!!!
Gee I guess that's it for now. I do not have any real plans for the weekend ... just hoping Bob starts to feel better soon. He is still really feeling poorly. It has been one week as of today since his last radiation treatment. I know it takes time to recover. Poor thing, he has just felt like crap. We are both counting the days until Mexico and talk dreamily together about reading by the pool, swimming in the ocean, eating seafood and drinking cold cervezas and margaritas.
In closing ... today as always I have at least five things I am grateful for ...
1. a kind compliment from a colleague yesterday regarding my weight loss ... it was quite heartfelt and from a woman who has battled with her own weight issues an so felt extra special to me
2. a lovely thank you note from a family who recently exited the program I work for ... reminding me that being present and available to others is much more powerful than "help" and "advice" and I must never make assumptions about whether or not 'I' think 'I' am being 'effective' with a family
3. the awareness that life is tenuous accompanied by at least moments of peacefulness about that awareness ... making each moment precious to me
4. what I HAVE as opposed to what I DO NOT have ...
5. that while I would prefer to live along side my mate for another 20 plus years ... I am no longer 'afraid' to be 'alone' ...
See what happens if I have more time ... suddenly I get 'deep', introspective, all that 'stuff'!! LOL!!
Enjoy your day my friends!!! I shall be reminding myself not to 'sweat the small stuff' and be as present in each moment as I am able!! A little exercise, breakfast, vitamin D from the tanning salon (just a little to brace my skin for Mexico ... no worries), sprucing up my hair, running of errands and launching myself into the weekend!!! Remember you are worth MORE than the number on the scale and at the same time you DESERVE to be healthy and well!!!!
Take care!!!
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182.4 lb
Lost so far: 76.8 lb.
Still to go: 0 lb.
Diet followed 100%.
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Diet Calendar Entries for 05 March 2010:
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2043 kcal
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Fat: 68.94g | Prot: 114.79g | Carb: 210.40g.
Breakfast: water, white turkey meat, Whole Wheat Sandwich Thins, Jarlsberg Lite. Lunch: Eating Right Beef Barley Soup, Smuckers Sugar Free Jam, Omega Peanut Butter, cracked wheat bread. Dinner: Arrowhead Sparkling Water, Papa Murphy's Chicken Garlic Delite. Snacks/Other: Pinot Grigio, Jarlsberg Lite, Snickers Marathon Dark Chocolate Crunch, sourdough bread, Omega 3 peanut butter, Pretzel Rods. more...
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3429 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Shopping - 1 hour, Sitting - 4 hours, Sleeping - 8 hours, Resting - 4 hours and 14 minutes, Desk Work - 3 hours and 22 minutes, Precor Elliptical - 1 hour and 24 minutes, Driving - 2 hours. more...
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gaining 4.2 lb a week
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I love your 5! I'm sorry Bob's not feeling his best, and that you woke up so early when you could have slept in. Sorry I have not been good at making my rounds. I'm sure you'll get back down to where you would like to be, and if you want to go lower, I know that you, more than anyone, has the strenth and the dedication to get there. Don't be mad at the scale, you are so zen-like and inspirational. Keep smiling and you'll get to where you need to be
05 Mar 10 by member: alllicat
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As always I love your attitude Moose! I'm so vicariously excited for your Mexico trip it is not even funny! :)
05 Mar 10 by member: Chris1979
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LoL... I love your 1st paragraph... I guess im not the only one that is obsessed about the number on the scale =) I know how you feel... But remember, It will get better =) Hope you have a wonderful friday and a splended weekend... And about your #5, lucky you, I dont have that Yet... And who knows if I will....
05 Mar 10 by member: Beautiful95828
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:) ENJOY YOUR DAY Moose! As always "Inspiration all over your journal"... Thank you!
05 Mar 10 by member: inola
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Beautiful ... not to sound 'old' or anything but at your age I wouldn't have had a number 5 either ... there was so much I couldn't know yet ... I was in such a hurry and so believed I was unlovable. I am still learning to embrace each moment to its fullest and take life as it unfolds ... your journey will be as meaningful as you choose ... remember ... you are beautiful
05 Mar 10 by member: madaboutmoose
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Mad, what a wonderful 5. What a wonderful blog. I love those mornings when everything is pushed back a few hours and it being okay that everything is pushed back a few hours... I love my robe and my black coffee and I hope you really enjoyed it this morning! I hope to have a morning like yours tomorrow... Great thoughts. Great things.
05 Mar 10 by member: Ashface444
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I don't know why you are concerned over 0.6 pounds since you very well know that could be anything. The chart and scale seem the least of your problems. I hope Bob is at least partially recovering from the rash that was driving him crazy a few days ago. Radiation sometimes has lingering effects but from what I've seen thay pass fairly quickly. Sometimes we really have to work at discovering where the opportunities that crisis bring are (lol) (they usually *end up* making you stronger) but sometimes, while in the midst of turmoil, it is very difficult to see clearly. Glad to hear that the root canal seems to be going well, and thanks for your delicate post today moose. I'm a little scattered today and am looking forward to the weekend. Have a good one.
05 Mar 10 by member: information
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Hoping hubby is feeling better soon. I am envious of your planned trip and hope you have a lovely lovely time!
06 Mar 10 by member: dawn0001
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I like your cortisol theory! Sounds good to me! He-he-he-he-he-he! Are you buddies with amryk? Your effective application of hunmor to soothe the soul succeeds. No math is SIMPLE to me. Then again. I suppose SIMPLE is a relative concept. Love your "five" today. Go get 'em - Moose!
06 Mar 10 by member: poet-in-motion
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Yes I am buddies with Amyrk!!
06 Mar 10 by member: madaboutmoose
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Info ... I'm not really concerned about .6 lbs ... just being silly I suppose. Today I was up even more and though I did eat way more calories I also exercised a long time so whatever. Probably the sodium in the Pizza and I know in the long run it is SIMPLE MATH ... it always is!!! Bob's rash is slowly fading ... we are seeing a dermatologist on Monday ... seems some of the rash is radiation but another part is something has reoccurred over the years so we'll see what the dermatologist has to say. Overall Info I really do know that life is good ... because life is what it is but you are so right, sometimes in the midst of 'crisis' it is difficult to see the forest for the trees but in time it sorts out. I read an interesting article (wish I could remember where so I could post a link) that talked about set points with weight and that it can take up to 6 months for a set point to change. I'm wondering if that is a part of what I am experiencing ... though I'm sure the stress hormones also affect my weight. That said though, I have done quite well and though I may not have a 'jessy' body the one I have is pretty darn good for an 'old gal' and I am absolutely delighted with my progress!!! I hope you have a rejuvenating weekend my friend!!
06 Mar 10 by member: madaboutmoose
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Good body for an old lady eh? LOL! I wonder how many "old ladys" waste a large part of their lives not knowing how much they are appreciated by "young guys" like me! hehe. I too have read a little about set points but, I'm not really clear on it or convinced of anything. I think I neeed to revisit that entire topic so thanks for bringing it up. These days I'm completely unfazed by what the scale says *unless* I know that it is talking to me for a reason. Then, these days, I'm trying to act promptly. Today, I had another increase but I had a small but hearty salad right before bed with an entire avocado, and a small bag of popcorn as well so I'm not surprised nor concerned (in the least). I am disciplined and I like that about myself. :-) Have a good day moose, and again, thanks for your thoughtfulness.
06 Mar 10 by member: information
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mmmmm ... avocado ... just bought 2 yesterday ... that sounds delectable!!! Thank you for the 'kind' compliment ... shhh ... don't tell anyone but I always am flattered when my hubby points out to me that a man has given me the "up and down scan" (or whatever you guys call that)!! LOL!!! You brought a smile to my face ... more sunshine on a fine Saturday thanks!! If I find that article again I'll let you know ... I think I read it in a magazine though ... take care!!
06 Mar 10 by member: madaboutmoose
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