MightyFull's Journal, 01 July 2014

I don't think you're doing it right 

but you gained weight?  

your picture says "try hard every day" and to be honest you are abusing that saying by putting on 7.4lb who even are you, you need to take a good luck at your self because you are slacking 

You are all right. I am not "trying hard every day." For the month of July I insist you kick my ass like you have done today. My spouse is not being as blunt, as he has to live with me. Words of reality from strangers here cut deep and remind me that I have stopped allowing myself to succeed...or even a feeble attempt to succeed or at least turn towards the right direction. I had a dream the other night that taught me that I no longer have the right to succumb to my circumstances, and only I can change where I am. Only I can change the direction my body is going. I measured today and didn't like the results. I abhor the side reflection in the mirror...no amount of illusion will make that okay. (Chest: 43"/Waist 43.5"/Hips 49"...with the lovely weight of 234.2lbs) It's annoying to see the lose weight quick schemes on the tellie. GARCINIA CAMBOGIA - the wonder supplement - how Christina Aguilaria got her sexy body back and didn't change her diet or exercise....or Lipozene, which I recall when it first came out that it was only for those people seriously obese with 50 to 100lbs to lose. Apparently, people ignored that clause, and now it's available for everyone. It just pisses me off that there are these advertisements....particularly when I've let myself go. Funny thing this morning during the Sculpt 30 session (Turbo Fire) - with the evil red bans. The Tip of the Day from Charlene was to schedule your exercise. Make it as important as your most important appointment. This is the one thing that I just let slide. I got up this morning at 6am, but really need to change that to at least 5am or 5:30am so as to not bother my spouse and interfere with his daily schedule. I trashed my overzealous calendar that I had created for the remainder of the year. It was literally too overwhelming. I created another monthly calendar for only July. I measured this morning. I weighted this morning. And had the conversation with my spouse to hold me accountable and help me stick to my goals. (I would love for him to be as inspired (or pissed off, as in my case) to challenge himself this month, but I can only wish. We've both been complacent, and just burning the candle at both ends. Which doesn't make it easier.) I had just forgotten that exercise energizes a person. One of my excuses was that I was tired. I was tired in the morning and tired at night. Which made it hard to follow-thru with my good intentions. That's all it was, an intention, not a real decision to do a damn thing. So bottom line, thank you Dan Lever, James Mannion8, povall7x, and Thomas hawkins, for you are dishing out what I need to hear. Keep. It. Up. - MightyFull