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Good morning buddies. Thank you, yet again, for the overwhelming support on my last journal. :)
I am feeling better now, although I am still feeling overwhelmed and anxious. I have done a lot of soul searching and have decided that I'm feeling anxious simply because life is stressful right now. My son is graduating from preschool tonight, I have birthday parties and graduation parties every weekend for the next month to work in around my trips to Indiana to visit my brother, and I'm starting school. Everything is changing at rapid pace and I have never been good at change... I hate it. I guess it helps to have a cause for the anxiety, I can kind of talk myself out of it. One day at a time, one issue at a time. Let go and let god.
This morning I will be finishing up my Financial aid crap, and I also have to find the money to get my CPR cert before the start of classes. Stupid because I have a red cross CPR cert, but they want it to be from the American heart association. Coincidence that they provide the American heart association CPR cert for an additional sixty dollars? I think not. Stupid. Just another stress on the pile, I can get through it though, one thing at a time.
I have been walking every day this week. Monday with Hoss, the last two days with my husband and kids after work. I love walking, and now that I'm fitter I could walk forever. I wish I could, it soothes me. Yesterday was the first day I felt up to going to the gym and I killed it. I did thirty minutes on the precor (cardio) followed by upper body strength training, then I ran one mile around the indoor track. It was empowering. Then factor in the walk last night, it was a mighty good calorie burn day.
I haven't been wearing my BM armband. I know about what I burn on workout/rest days, so I'm taking a break from all of the numbers. Except calories, still counting those. I can't let go of everything now can I?
Just got back from my FA appointment lol. Busy mornings. All is well, and I'm set to start school in July. One thing off the list.
As I was leaving here my neighbor called and said that one of her dogs was missing when she left for work, and she was worried because the other dog is blind so she doesn't like for her to be alone. On my way back I stopped by my neighbors house to see if the dog had returned on her own and sure enough she had. I stopped and tied her up with the other dog, called my neighbor to let her know the dogs were fine. She was very grateful. Always feels good to be able to help someone out. They're always helping me catch my dog, nice to return the favor.
Now that I'm home I'm going to tend to the kittens and get this place cleaned up. Might even go out and weed the flower beds this afternoon. Deep breaths, one day at a time.
Trying to stay optimistic and focus on the positive. As a matter of fact, I think I will start listing three positive things every day, as suggested by a buddy :-)
1) I am loved and supported by friends and family, both online and IRL
2) My family and I are (for the most part) healthy
3) 5 adorable kittens that would not be here today without me
(It's amazing how hard that was.)
Have a wonderful day everyone!
Diet Calendar Entries for 22 May 2014:
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1311 kcal
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Fat: 63.65g | Prot: 85.55g | Carb: 108.99g.
Breakfast: L'oven Fresh 100% Whole Wheat Bread (25g), Bertolli Olive Oil, Egg, Coffee-Mate Original Powder Creamer. Lunch: Jif Extra Crunchy Peanut Butter, Smucker's Concord Grape Jam, L'oven Fresh 100% Whole Wheat Bread (25g). Dinner: Beef (Roast) Hash, Chicken Dark Meat (Roasting, Cooked, Roasted). Snacks/Other: Kraft Sweet & Spicy Chipotle Barbecue Sauce. more...
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2178 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Walking (slow) - 2/mph - 1 hour, Resting - 15 hours, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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(((((((Yolanda)))))))))) To my ray of sunshine.
22 May 14 by member: ClassicRocker
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Likely you didn't have the chance to see, but I put in a finally put in a fatsecret bio last week with some specific goals for this year and you were my inspiration to do so. I thought you should know that even though your world is crazy and hectic and frustrating, you are still an inspiration to others. Thank you and warm wishes and hugs to you!
22 May 14 by member: sharon128
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Yes, lots of changes!! One day at a time, one issue at a time you just keep on marching! I'm SO proud with what you're trying to do with your life :D
22 May 14 by member: LuC2
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Remember - when we are not changing we are not living. Change is hard but from my view - everything you are going through has a positive to it. School is difficult but it is worth it. You will have more security, money, stability, opportunity etc etc. Same with your Brother - this change is for the better. The streesful part of it all is that so often - change comes all at once. That is where you are now - a whirlwind of change. I read once that we actually age every 9 years.... you will look the same for 9 years and then all of a sudden, your face will age.... I don't know if that is really true or not but it does seem to follow what my life is like - it all happens at once. :) thanks for rescuing the blind dog. That was a really good deed that you did for the dog and for your neighbor.
22 May 14 by member: alexzwk
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That is so Awesome. Change means growth and all the opportunities it comes with. Truly a Blessing. If things aren't changing, you're not living. God is Good and his plans surpass any you can even imagine. Be filled with Joy and Peace for Blessings coming your way.
22 May 14 by member: TryinginTexas
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In spite of all the stress you are going through, your journal reflects a happy and productive few days, and that really says something! Congrats to you and your son on preschool graduation - so cute! Walking outside is so relaxing, I need to do more of that. Love your 3 positive things. My gratitude lists really helped me get through a rough patch over the winter - maybe I should get back to them! SUPER awesome on school in July! So fast! You sure know how to get 'er done! For me, as much as we look forward to spring all year, now I am like "OMG OMG so much to do and gotta have fun and live it up because summer goes by sooo fast" so maybe that rushed feeling is adding to everyone's anxiety right now? You're so right - one day at a time! HUGS!
22 May 14 by member: megmonster
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This time of year is always so busy, graduations, weddings, holidays, along with trying to fit in family outings when it's nice outside. It gets stressful, but you will get through it! Keep on walking and getting to the gym and that will help with some of that stress. Glad the FA meeting went well. Now all you have to do is get started!! You're awesome! :)
22 May 14 by member: mars2kids
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I was thinking about that Numbers thing last night too - how to find the balance between the scale to the recording to the size to the ... numbers are hard to ignore from the long time pencil pusher in me.... has to be a better way. Good to hear from you kiddo.
22 May 14 by member: FullaBella
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Busy busy!! Congratulations on your son's graduation and all of your accomplishments: the dogs, the school stuff, the workout - whew! You must be exhausted! :)
22 May 14 by member: hyde_grrl
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