Annabelle3117's Journal, 01 May 2014

Success!! I have been saved, hallelujah! lol I stuck to calorie plan yesterday, hooray. One solid 'win' under my belt, should be smooth sailing from here... knock on wood. My MIL has been discharged from the hospital, great news. Nothing new to babble about my brother, also great news. Feeling optimistic this morning.

I made an appointment to go take the test to test out of the medical terminology course for Monday. I asked an acquaintance of mine if she still had her book so I could refresh, and she invited me out for coffee. I declined, so she invited me to zumba. So then I accepted the invite for coffee lol. She is a heavier gal, and when she invited me to zumba it clicked that what she really wanted was to talk to me about my weight loss. She has been posting some healthier meals she has made on FB, so with the added zumba info I can now conclude that she is trying to follow in my footsteps. She started posting those things shortly after I revealed my success on FB. I think I have a fan! Least I can do is give her some of my time, and help her in the right direction. We are meeting up tomorrow, and I'm looking forward to it. I've never had a real life fan before lol. So that's that.

It has been an emotional roller coater this week, as I'm sure you may have noticed. I feel like some things with my MIL were overshadowed by darker issues. On Monday when I decided to go for her procedure I didn't know what to expect. I decided to go because I didn't want her to be alone, because I've been alone and scared in a hospital and nobody deserves that. She might not be the kindest, or easiest person to get along with... but a person is a person. I didn't know what to expect, I figured either she would think I was stupid and ask what I was doing there or appreciate it. Luckily it was the latter, but I was prepared for either lol. I caught her off guard, that's for damn sure, but it worked out. She insisted I be right there with her in recovery, and the first thing her drugged up ass asked for when she got to recovery was her daughter-in-law. It was a moment, let me tell ya. My husband visited her that night while I was at work, and he told me that while he was In there three different nurses came in to try to start an IV and she told every one of them that her daughter-in-law was going to be a nurse. Awe, could she be proud of me??

This moves into an entirely different situation. Saturday night my cousin Lorie came over for drinks and I brought up a time our uncle called me out in front of a group because I just had to meet this person. I told her how much I hated that, and she responded by saying he was just proud of me and wanted to show me off. This blew my mind. Proud?? of ME?? Why in the world would anyone be proud of me? I still can't quite figure that out, but the idea of it is floating around in my head, and that's a step in the right direction. Have to love that self-doubt.

So there you have it, a dash of flattery, a pinch of self esteem, and a teaspoon of optimism... I'm going to take it and run with it. I should literally run... lol, maybe a trip to the gym this morning If I can dig up some spare change. Time to start hitting those fitness and caloric goals again. Oh, and I'm giving up alcohol for the duration of the challenge.

I very sincerely thank you for reading, and always supporting me through my journals. You would be surprised how many times I go back to your comments throughout the day.

Hoping everyone has a wonderful Thursday!

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1593 kcal

Fat: 58.80g | Prot: 121.65g | Carb: 150.75g.   Breakfast: Great Value Vanilla Caramel Coffee Creamer, Coffee-Mate Original Powder Creamer. Lunch: Nickles Light 35 Wheat Bread, Great Value Sharp Cheddar Cheese, Eggland's Best Hard Cooked Peeled Eggs, Kraft Miracle Whip Dressing, Shrimp fried rice, Tyson Foods Grilled & Ready Chicken Breast Strips. Dinner: Lakeland Hamburger Bun, Great Value Tater Tots, Hunt's Manwich Heat & Serve Original Sloppy Joe Sauce with Fully Cooked Ground Beef. Snacks/Other: Keebler Club Crackers Original, Cracker Barrel Sharp Cheddar Cheese, Beatrice Skim Milk, EAS Lean 15 Protein Powder - Chocolate Fudge. more...