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Good Monday Mid-Morning. I have completed all of the exercise objectives I made for myself over the last four days with exception to my 13 mile bike ride which I will complete once I finish work today. My caloric intake has not been too crazy, but I did not succeed at staying under 100 net carbs per day.
The insurance medical examiner came to my house first thing this morning to take my height/weight measurements for the life insurance I had applied. Weight was up at 177.8 and he got my height 5'5". As I have experienced a weight gain after every long run, I remarked that my weight was up and explained that I had my long run yesterday and still have some marked swelling in my legs and fingers. This is always typical for me and sometimes I see an increase of as much as three pounds which falls off about 48 hours after a run. Mr. Medical Examiner informed me that my weight should be down due to water loss during a long run. I guess he took my comment as argumentative. So, I refrained from remarking when he came up with me somehow being an inch taller than I know I am. Eh...whether he got me at 5'4 and 174 lbs or 5'5 and 178, the difference in BMI is negligible and both make me OVERWEIGHT FINALLY! Might I add that I was not naked when I submitted to the exam. Had I been, I may even be lesser overweight. This is the last time I will be REQUIRED to weigh in for some time so I should fall into Yolanda's challenge without many obstacles. Other than the new doughnut shop that opened in town, that is. I succumbed to a chocolate cake with icing doughnut this morning. Just one. I don't regret it. The rest of the day should be veggie-filled. I think I will prepare spaghetti squash for dinner tonight. And, I have a salad in the fridge here at the office I intend on eating for lunch (assuming it is still good).
I had a rough day at work Friday afternoon. It was another sign to me that I need to find something else to do with the next half of my life that I enjoy. I guess I was a bit emotional too as the stress of the medical bills, taxes, paying college tuition for my oldest was all weighing on me. One more swift kick came from someone I work with in a distant capacity who decided to berate my job performance in front of a large group of people. I could ordinarily handle the criticism. It was just his choice of timing that made it especially tough to swallow. I try to put up a tough exterior in this very adversarial profession. But, my inner ghetto which would have fought back with quick wit flowed right out of my eyes in the form of tears. Yeah, real professional, huh? Business women aren't suppose to be reduced to tears. I considered skipping Zumba to go home and hide under the covers in my bed. But, I ultimately put on my big girl panties, set my jaw and tough facade and trekked out to the class thinking I wouldn't see anyone I knew anyway. But, of course, that is exactly when you run into people you know. I ended up bawling again when I ran into someone at the Zumbathon who had seen the entire verbal assault unfold. Thankfully, the lights were dimmed with some disco lights as soon as the music started so I was able to hide my anguish long enough to blend in with everyone else who ended the class with a flushed face. I need to let go of this now. So I hope that journaling will give me the strength to just move on from it.
When you're facing 40 and trying to decide what you want to do with the rest of your life, it can be a bit daunting. I have been out of college for at least 12 years now. Essentially anything I would want to do would require me to go back. And, then of course I have this nagging voice in the back of my mind that questions "What if I fail at that too?"
Ok...so my short term focus since I can say that I have succeed in meeting my fitness plan for the last four days:
Fitness Plan: 13 miles on the bike tonight as promised to myself, Tuesday will include Zumba in the morning and a five mile run followed by some strength training in the afternoon, Wednesday will include Zumba in the morning and an 8 mile run in the afternoon, Thursday will be a four mile run followed with strength training, then Friday I will do Zumba in the morning only and rest in the afternoon. Saturday morning is a half-marathon race.
Food Plan: Keep calories reasonable and create at least a 500 calorie per day deficit.
Every day is a new day to get it right, right? Whether it be about your job, relationship, food intake or exercise. Here's to hoping we all get today right.
2MC
Diet Calendar Entries for 14 April 2014:
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2743 kcal
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Fat: 156.57g | Prot: 127.54g | Carb: 218.94g.
Breakfast: Wal-Mart Flat Iron Steak, Egg. Lunch: Marketside Chef's Salad (Container). Dinner: Zaxby's Chocolate Chip Cookie, Zaxby's Cole Slaw, Zaxby's Crinkle Fries, Zaxby's Chicken Fingerz (5 Pieces). Snacks/Other: Chocolate Cake (with Chocolate Frosting), Ice Cream, Ghirardelli Dark Collection Chocolate Squares, Winchell's Chocolate Cake Donut - Chocolate Iced with Chocolate Sprinkles. more...
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