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Have to again thank you all for your amazing, insightful, never-ending love & support! Being there for me yesterday, made all the difference in the world, both in supporting me through a day where I was feeling upset, tired, sad, etc. and giving me good advice about DH's actions. While he hadn't expressed it at the time & maybe I should have realized anyway, he was feeling the loss of his friend & enjoying/needing the distraction of the party and his other friends Saturday night. Anyway, we've worked it out (some via text messaging & email… in our usual, but possibly dysfunctional?, way) and all is better on the home front again! And it did give me the chance to let him know that as I am opening up more to him and trying to express my feelings more, I need him to do the same.
I have a day of reprieve today, then I'm "on" again tomorrow. We're going into NYC for dinner & to see the Nutcracker with a group from DH's office. It will be another long day as we leave his office at 3 & won't return there until 10:30ish. The restaurant looks fabulous though, and I am excited to see the ballet as I haven't in many years. I'm choosing to look at it as another opportunity to use my new mindful eating & living skills, as well as well as practice taking the breaks (before/during/after) I need so that I can be the extrovert I learned to become during these social events. I then get a bit of a break from socializing as my oldest has shoulder surgery on Fri (if you can call that a break!?!), so we've no plans for next weekend, other than youngest's arrival home from college on Fri night :)!
Today (weather permitting as we've had some freezing rain which is to change to all rain soon) I'm off to workout, then see my therapist (its going really well & I'm happy with my decision to do so and choice of person to work with) and fill in with errands and holiday prep. But before I get on with my day, I'll pray --
God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
Amen.
And throughout this one day and each one meal, moment, bite & emotion, I'll pray, breathe, journal, post & express my way. I continue to be so very grateful for each of awesome you, my family & IRL friends, working things out with DH including learning to start expressing our feelings to each other… in baby steps, and having the health & wealth to live this life I love! xoxox
Diet Calendar Entries for 09 December 2013:
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500 kcal
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Fat: 10.50g | Prot: 38.00g | Carb: 60.00g.
Breakfast: Harmless Harvest 100% Raw Coconut Water, Spectrum Organic Virgin Coconut Oil. Lunch: IdealShape Milk Chocolate Meal Replacement Shake, Lactaid 100% Lactose Free Fat Free Milk. Dinner: IdealShape Vanilla Meal Replacement Shake, Lactaid 100% Lactose Free Fat Free Milk. more...
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1886 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Bicycling (fast) - 15/mph - 1 hour, Resting - 15 hours, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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