debbra's Journal, 01 January 2009

THIS here is an EXCELLENT POST !!! I absolutely HATE the way my tummy feels after a pig out session.... EWW !!! I have been trying to remind myself WHY I am eating and try to evaluate what is really going on underneath it all... Obviously we have some thing inside making us want to EAT !!! Either way, good for you to post your thoughts and feelings right now... Get back up, brush off, and keep going ! I am here with you !!!! :D 

Thank you sooooo much, because I am feeling really angry at myself about the way I've lost control over the last couple of days. I think it started because I wasn't feeling very well, maybe a little virus, I don't know. But then my weight wasn't dropping on the scale. I almost feel like I just sabotaged myself in a very self-destructive way out of frustration!!!! And the reason I wrote this post is because I can't pull myself out of it today! I'll have to wait until the full effects of the eating wear off. I can't exercise. My stomach hurts. I'm moody. I'm sluggish. I even allowed my kids and hubby to go on a hike without me, and I love hikes. This overeating is like poison. It's going to be in my system now until I can get myself back on track. Hopefully tomorrow. At any rate, I am going to stop this nonsense right now and eat a very small dinner and go to sleep early. I just am so mad at myself for screwing up like this!!!!!!!!!!!! 

DON'T BE MAD AT YOURSELF !!!! It is only because we are human and emotional that causes these "sessions" --- I have always been a huge advocate of a very important word: FORGIVENESS ! FORGIVE YOURSELF and move past this moment... and remember -- this is only a moment ! You have the rest of your life to move forward and get healthier.... we are entitled to slip up... the LONG RUN is what counts... You can forgive yourself now, and then remember how you feel now later on if you are having a weak moment... I'm here for you too !!! I found a plaque that I bought for myself that I have hanging in my kitchen, and it reads: I WILL LOVE MYSELF THROUGH THICK AND THIN and that is SO good ! Weather I am gaining or losing, I will still love myself just the way I am !!! (and right next to that, I have a little Fairie in a box that says: "*POOF* You're Skinny !" (Psssst --- she works !!! LOL) Check this link out: http://www.narniastudios.com/poof_fairies/skinny.htm 

Don't be so hard on yourself! Maybe you did have a little virus, and that could cause some of the bad feelings, too. And not wanting to hike. And wanting to eat comfort foods. Rest and give yourself time - you'll be fine!  

Thanks, guys! I'm amazed how your replies help me!!! That's why I know that I will ultimately win my weight war!!!! 

i think you making it in the red font will make it even easier for you to remember. Im glad you have realized these things and made mini goals. Youll be fine 

Debbra...I am right there with you girl. I have been having the exact same problems. I got sick, then I didn't see true weight loss, just the sick weight loss...I started getting depressed about everything in my life...and before I knew it...I had blown everything that I had worked so hard to lose in the past month....all in a week and a half. I started feeling angry at myself...but I wrote out my resolutions last night, and I'm going to stick to them. I'm so happy that 2009 is here....I know it will be a fresh start for both of us!! We can do this together!! :) 

I think it's important to pick one accomplishment that you can be proud of - especially when you feel so yucky - to pull yourself up a bit. Not to whitewash, just to pull yourself up and out of that funk. So, I overate last night, and I am not even going to record the food journal for that day, but I acknowledge that I don't feel good after. And then I pat myself on the back for eating less than last Dec 31st, and I drank less too. Maybe you moved a little more than you would have a year ago. And most importantly, tomorrow is a new day, on which I will start again fresh. I did not gain 30 pounds in one day, and I will need more than one day to lose it, and more than one day to frig it up! -KMC 

Oh, man... I'm right there with ya, debbra!!! I didn't have one big pig out, just a long series of little oinks. And now I'm menstrual and constipated and on the anti-climax-post-holiday no-more-company downwardspiral... *smacking myself upside the head* Time to put on our big girl panties and suck it up. We can only take action in the here and now. Bemoaning our past is pointless. Worrying about the future is futile. Let's just do this!!!!  

I'm going to do it!!!! Thanks everyone!!!! I'm sooooo glad I have you all to lean on!!!! 

Well, I'm happy to have you around debbra so I think I'll lean on you a bit too. ;-) Have a very Happy New Year! 

I've been there too, Debbra, and its just AWFUL. You tell it EXACTLY the way it is. Use that anger!!! Look at those refined sugars and treats or whatever might be tempting you and UNLOAD those emotions!!! Yesterday I said to the toasted baguettes at the restaurant: "I HATE you!!" And I got SO mad at them that I refused to eat them. (Whereas minutes before they were calling out to me badly). LOL!!! I turned them into my ENEMY. HAH!!! I believe we can make the power of our emotions work FOR us. You are worth it!!!