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Good Morning!
It's Thursday morning. It's 5:45 AM and it feels even earlier for me today.
I had a HARD time sleeping. It's been like this for a few days, and it is getting so tedious. I am so tired of not being able to sleep as I am used to, it's killing me. Just as I think I am getting better at sleeping on my back, then I have another sleepless night. Hrmff...
I woke up at 11:30 pm, done sleeping. I even got up, figuring I might as well sit up and not interrupt Wife's sleep. She woke up anyways, and came to check up on me, and convinced me to come to bed. I finally fell asleep again after a while, and slept until she started to get up and get ready. This gave me a total of probably 4 hours of sleep. Not good.
I hope to sleep a little more through the morning.
My friend Dennis will come see me this morning. I'm happy that he's gonna be here, he is great to talk to and time will fly much easier than what I am used to.
Today's entertainment is lined up - I am gonna spend three hours watching Rush's Snakes and Arrows live DVD. It's a good show, it looks like, and I will be looking forward to it.
I need entertainment - hopefully today will pass easily.
Yesterday was rought. I was bored beyond my wits. It was really bad. I am happy that my friend came by in the morning, or it would have been even worse. He left around the time Wife came home, and we had dinner. But the evening was killing me. I was sleepy, I think, and frustrated with not being able to sit anywhere but my chair. I can only do so much from there, and what I can do has already been done, trust me. I really wish I was into games or something else that is very time demanding like that.
Trouble is that because of my lack of sleep I can't really focus. I put on a movie, and I lose interest in it within 15 minutes. I put something else on, same thing. I am sure my journals here are more rambling and incoherent compared to what they normally are.
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So, today I didn't lose or gain. Well, I almost gained. Yesterday, when I got on the scale, it was shifting between 78.7 and 78.8, and settled on 78.8. Today, it was shifting between 78.8 and 78.9, and settled still on 78.8. It's marginal, and just an observation.
I'm not really focused on the weight. I just follow it to see whether I lose the fluids, and to keep an eye on what I am doing here.
I did both good and bad on my food choices yesterday. I had my usual breakfast, and added a slice of cheese to the mix. I wanted a little more protein and a few more calories to fill me up. It was great.
Then, around 10 am, I usually get hungry, and I want to add a little something. At this point, while I am healing, I have taken a little habit of a protein shake with some frozen fruit. It's very smoothie-ish, and super delicious. Also, it serves the purpose of me having some scheduled things to be looking forward to doing through the day. It helps me kill the boredom of just sitting here.
Lunch was white bread, two slices, with a can of mackerel in tomato sauce. This mackerel is something that is growing very popoular in our house hold. It's easy to fix, it's tasty, great on protein and fairly cheap. What's not to like? :)
Dinner was simple, oven fries and a frankfurter, which I had about 80% of. Just a handful of fries.
The trouble came when I went to pick up Wife after work. We went shopping a little and I gave in to a little "pity-cake". First, I shouldn't have given in. Second, I shouldn't have bought two. They tasted delicious, though, and I don't really have a problem with it. I just really didn't want them, and I hate when I eat something that I know isn't necessary, and when I don't really want it in the first place. I hate losing that control. Still, no real damage done.
I'm not even sure I went over my calories doing it.
This morning I woke up thirsty. Very thirsty. I think I have been low on water through the night. Strange. I did drink a lot of water yesterday, but not as much seemed to come back out during the day. Maybe I am regaining a little of the water? (TMI warning!) My urine this morning was also more yellow and "thicker" than normally. This is usually a sigh that I am low on fluids. (TMI warning off!).
So, does that mean that I generally am low on water and that I should expect the rest to be me being a tiny bit over weight, or can I not compare like that? Personally, I think I can not compare like that. There has to be more to it, especially post-surgery. I do feel much lighter, and I feel a lot better, but I would like to see a few more kgs off before it settles. It'd love to be below the magic 77, and stay there. Still it's only 1.8 kgs away, and I should be able to get there in time. I'm in no hurry, and I won't push it right now. I will simply keep eating well most of the time, and drink tons and tons of water to flush out more.
Then, of course, there is also the constipation issue. (Remember, how I did the TMI warning off? Well I lied! LOL!). Taking the iron pills make me constipated. I can tell that my "performance" isn't at all regular. This can also easily explain today's weigh-in. I take some medicine for it, and hopefully it'll help throughout the day. We'll see.
Tomorrow, the food plans will - at least for the dinner - go all out the window.
I am hoping to get my stitches taken out, and I count on everything being peachy. It's a daunting task to take them all out, but more on that in a moment.
Wife has been so amazing, and so helpful and supportive and taken all my whining thought this last part of the journey. She's been such a sport. So, I am taking her out for the day, after the hospital visit. We are going to be in Roskilde, the city where I was admitted to the hospital, the one with the huge festival, which is actually ongoing. There will be a LOT of fun (and smelly!) people in town for the festival, and I am sure it'll be a blast. We have a few restaurants we have been wanting to check out, and one is a little Mexican place called Gringo's. They have a little all-you-can-eat taco lunch buffet, and it looks pretty good. Depending on when we are out from the hospital, I will take her there for a snack for lunch. I will try to do good, as my "real" meal will be dinner.
Dinner will be at "Bones" - the best rib house in MANY miles from where we live. We don't have anything like it where we live, and it's good enough to compete with even the real American rib houses. They food is simply to die for.
I have booked us a table there, as I know Wife is nuts about their food. I think it will be a very suitable place to go for the evening. She needs to be treated to a nice evening out.
I just hope I have the strength to go the whole day. I will pace myself, and of course Wife is also aware that I don't have the energy that I normally would have. I will need plenty of breaks, but these can be had at a cafe or such. I just need to have a green light from the doctors on sitting in a more normal position. I should get the permission tomorrow.
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I am, as always, concerned about the stitches. Today, I feel a burning sensation on my left back side. It's been there all morning, and it might be as simple as me being tired in my back after my sleep, when it finally kicked in. It could be as simple as that.
However, the doctors also asked me to be aware of burning sensations, and that it could be a sign of infection. We do NOT want infection. Still, it started today, it sits right where I have my old muscle damage in my back and it very well might just be my back pulling it's old trick on me.
No matter, if I call the hospital today, surely they can't "squeeze me in" until tomorrow, where I have the apointment, regardless. It makes no difference whether I worry about it or not, so I try not to. I took some painkillers, they also reduce potential fever, and actually help on stuff like this a little bit. Besides, if there IS infection, they'll simply put me on penicillin to kill it, I believe. It'll be alright. Wife checks the stitches several times every day, she says there is no redness, and all she sees is bruising and healing. She does see that the protective "tape", or band-aid, is slowly starting to let go. I am glad we're getting it all looked at tomorrow.
This thing has left me a little bit too paranoid about the cut. I think that is the downside of being forced to sit and do nothing. You think too much.
So, I wanted to tell you about the stitches. It's not a big, long story, but just something that I realized that I haven't shared with you guys.
My friend Dennis was curious as to how MANY stitches I got. You know, when people cut themselves, or they have surgery, they always ask "how many stitches", as if it's a measurement of the severity of the surgery or cut. Just as much as people ask me how much skin they removed from my body.
Well, I never realized how many stitches, so I had Wife count them. Mind you, it's a little tricky to do, as you have to look through the take which is not fully see-though. You can kind of see what is going on though, and with the aid of a flash light she got it.
The result? I had 175 stitches! Damn! :) I gotta say I am surprised that it is this many. If they are coming out tomorrow, then that will be quite a time consumer. I guess it will be at least an hour long session we'll be doing with the doctors...
Anyways...
Today, I am thankful for...
- being able to sleep a few hours more last night, when I thought I couldn't.
- Kitty cat keeping me company.
- Coffee. Oh, how I will need it to day.
Happy Thursday. Life is good!
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173.7 lb
Lost so far: 168.0 lb.
Still to go: 0 lb.
Diet followed reasonably well.
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steady weight
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