dreamcatcher10's Journal, 04 October 2014

Good Job Young Lady!!! 

Thanks TAIC69  

Food is a friend. Without nutrition you would not exist. Make what you eat excellent, full of nutrition, serve it attractively when you can, eat slowly and relish every bite. Junk food and excessive portions are a foe.  

yes wholefoodnut I totally agree I have been there have done that ,,,, just not lately.... tell tale sign of something bugging me ?? that is really where my struggle has been ,,,, (( and realizing I use food as an escape )) that is why I wrote what I did !!!! maybe ya have never done that before ??? facing the emotional stuff is where I get caught up in and can drown a bite .. thats why I have been silent because its not that i dont know which foods will help me to lose or bring more health ,, its dealing with the emotional stuff ... doing my best to do that at this time ,,,, I wish I could say I dont do that but the facts are the facts and me sharing this is helpful to me <3 Im greatful for your support <3 thanks so Much <3  

Emotional stuff is hard. Have been there, done that, currently I'm in a good place. This site has actually helped me deal with so many things and has helped me face many of those emotional demons that were dragging me down both mentally and physically. Hope things life starts getting better for you.  

aweeeeeeeeeeeee Wholefoodnut ya melted my heart <3 just taking the risk to say the truth and have others except ya right were your at is so healing <3 Im so greatful to have ya as MY FS Buddie <3 your a strong women <3 have a blessed day <3  

(((((hugs))))) 

Good Job Young Lady!!! 

Dreamcatcher, I'm still working on putting my life back together, a several year journey. Spent a good chunk of yesterday working on the paper mess that is part of that journey. Clutter in my house, not caring about keeping things organized was a symptom of my mental state. I feel good enough now to sort out the piles.  

wholefoodnut the divorce of a 28 legally but we stayed under the same roof for 25 years ,,, still ( at times affects me ) after we broke up , he moved in with my cousin for 5 years , that ended about 6 months ago , now he's got a new girlfriend and he now lives in the same state !! I’m really crazy because after all we went through.. there is a love or concern there ,, I don’t ever wish him harm ,, I have prayed for him often.. it s our kids that really can get to me !! seeing the side effects in them the hurt them ,, there struggling with their hang ups that we passed unto them ,, I know how hard it has been to face my childhood and separated the baby from the bath water <3 I don’t bring up the past to my parents no need they were 16 & 19 years old when they had me ,, I Love my parents and my relationship with them is better then it ever ways My son ,, not my ex son but was 3 years old when we got married , my ex seemed loving and caring for him or I would have never married him in the first place ,,, but behind my back more then not my ex was emotional abusive to my son ,, the older my son got the war between them grew and our married suffered as a results my ex and I had two girls together !! The oldest now is 39 my ex-husband bonded with her , she could do know wrong even while she kicked him in the shines she never got into any trouble on and on I could go she and my ex believe the other two kids are just bad behaved kids and deserved my ex constant criticism ,, Glen who is 44 now , he wasn’t even 3 years old when my ex and I married my son never did any thing right my son and I cant remember any good words or memories of my ex saying any thing good about my son ! And my ex never bonded with my youngest daughter she is 37 ,, she struggles with self Love and picks unhealthy men as I did ,, and my daughter has biracial children whom I love very much and don’t see color .. but my ex does my ex doesn’t treat my youngest any kinder then he did my son ,, so its this that at times effects me greatly and I can get under the water and feel overwhelmed ,, thank goodness I have the Lord ,,, Or I would be totally bate crazy ,, and I know who I am with out the Lord ,,,,,,,,NOT GOOD ,, So yes this sight is good for me too Love to ya <3 praying ya have a blessed day grateful for your honesty some folks cant do that !!  

Aww, yeah, my kids have issues with their dad, so I understand. He is their biological dad, we were married 22 years together another 3. We were really good the first 10 years, then he became abusive both physically and mentally. We went through several bouts of counseling, groups, things would be good for awhile and then deteriorate. I could not go through it again and left in 1996. Turns out much of his craziness was due to bi-polar due to a seizure disorder, he wouldn't even remember things he did. He's on meds now. We called a major truce in 2007, we talk now etc., though sometimes strained. I still have flashbacks or wake up terrified in the middle of the night but they are much less often as time goes on. I still cannot wear a tight or even close collar as it makes feel like I'm being strangled and I go into a panic attack. It has had a major affect on my girls, I didn't realize how much until the past few years. 2nd ex DH went certified crazy, under psych care for multiple issues left him in 2006.