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was extremely hurt and let down by some one I dearly Love and I have been lethargic every since and struggling.
I have been asking the Lord to help me
I know he can and will ,,,
I feel like sometimes I'm just hanging on by a little thread
not the first time and I'm sure not the last
been there done this ,,,
I know turning to the Lord for strength is my only answer ,,
in my resent journal and sharing my heart I have received some very unkind remarks from a ((few FS member's very few )) ,,,Like they were sick of addicts making excuses
(( if they didn't have a problems in my book they wouldn't even need FS for help ... ???
PLEASE ... if ya cant be kind don't say anything
IM here for help and encouragement
I have meet the same time of folks were God forbid ya say anything that is not perfect ,,, wearing to me a mask .. because in 62 years I have never meet a perfect person even when I think I might have ,,, in time I always see an humane who is struggling to survive just like me ,,,
I have seen a LOT of different ways folks cope ,,,, hurt/hangup /habits ..... I personal have had many habits that I picked up that as I grew and gain wisdom gave up as I seen it for what it really is ,, and sleeked help to be an over comer ,, with Gods grace and mercy I'm able to say ,, I know longer do this or that ,, because I was able to be honest with myself and others ,,
since I know my addiction to food is emotionally the best the I can do is share my emotions instead of stuffing them down with food ,, as I have wrote my journal I have had my awawww moments that growing up if I tried to share a need I often was told not now ,, scolded or chastise for it ,, very few times was I able to say stop or I have a need ,, so bottom Line if my way of journal isn't for you I get it ,,,
but it is working for me I haven't stayed on track this long on caring more for my bodies wellness in a long time <3 had to let this out <3
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213.8 lb
Lost so far: 0.2 lb.
Still to go: 68.8 lb.
Diet followed reasonably well.
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Diet Calendar Entry for 01 September 2014:
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1489 kcal
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Fat: 82.93g | Prot: 57.64g | Carb: 135.56g.
Breakfast: Coffee, Bakery Fresh Molasses Cookies, Skim or Nonfat Milk (0.5% or Less Butterfat). Lunch: Fisherman's Wharf Swai Fillets, Butter, Philadelphia Original Cream Cheese, Bagel. Dinner: Fried Green Tomatoes. Snacks/Other: Great Value Sugar Free Chocolate Syrup, Berkeley Farms Strawberry Ice Cream. more...
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losing 0.2 lb a week
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I stared losing weight before i joined FS November 2013 244 lbs and yes it has slowed down ,, but I know how I am I pick up momentum and some times I struggle to stay in the game ,,,, Im not the sharpest tack in the box but I am a fighter ,, dint read till I was 21 years of age ,,, why taking care of 5 brothers and fearful at school ,the bible was my first book,,, got my GED in my late 40's went to college in my 50's got on deans list for above a 3.8 and I was told I am dumb and unteachable as a child ,so My head is hilt up high
01 Sep 14 by member: dreamcatcher10
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So sorry you seem to be feeling so defensive. One of the perks of getting older is experience. You have been through so much. You are a strong person! All of the experiences you've had have brought you wisdom in knowing yourself. I encourage you to continue to use that wisdom you've acquired. Please don't let anyone who has not walked in your shoes act as your judge. I hope you will remember the only one we have to try to please is our Creator. I know when I strive to please God, I am pleased with who I am becoming. {{{{{Hugs}}}}
01 Sep 14 by member: Hipaagrammy
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I agree with Hipaagrammy.
01 Sep 14 by member: deaby16
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Ditto. Don't let anyone bring you down. Life is too short to allow anyone to make you feel less to make themselves feel superior. You have been put on this earth for a reason. You did for your family growing up and you did for your family as a parent. I congratulate you on your schooling and your weight loss. It is hard. Pat yourself on your back, do a Happy Dance, and stick your tongue out at naysayers!! You deserve a happy life, go for it! As far as your weight is concerned, you will lose as long as you stay under your RDI and add a little exercise. Sometimes it just takes longer.
01 Sep 14 by member: kattay
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Right, you deserve love and respect, and you should be the first one to provide it to yourself - that was a hard lesson I have learned so far. You are strong and a very loving person, if someone has let you down, this is not your loss but his/hers. Sending you big hugs <3
01 Sep 14 by member: AilaOne
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Writing your thoughts down is a great way to deal with emotions. "The How of Happiness" has a whole chapter on the benefits of keeping a journal.
01 Sep 14 by member: ChrisComedy
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Hipaagreammy not meaning to sound so defensive ,, in my own way I was speaking to those that feel a need to shame me for were I'm at (( not you at all ) and as I said it has only been a few !!! I will not lie in saying it did hurt ,, but I will don't let those define me <3 I'm greatful to you for your Love and understanding and I love your journals your wisdom is well appreciated <3 deaby16 Thumbs up thanks for your support <3 katty Im sure if I will ever get to a place were when ya Love some one and they are carelss would Love to think I can ,, but not so sure ,, I know they to are humane and make misstates I dont relive they were deliberately trying to hurt me ,, and we are OK right now <3 that is what Love does is forgive ,, for today I just need to get stuff of my chest <3 and I am happy dancing feel like a house was lifted off my chest <3 after sharing <3 thanks for your support and your journals your pure openness is amazing and thanks for your pointing out to me how strong I am You too Hipaagrammy <3 AilaOne I know one of my hardest lessons as been Gods Love & my love will always be there for me when others just cant <3 I feel your tender heart all the way from were ya live to me <3 last but sure not least I love when ya share I'm very greatful to ya <3 you live factually and have a heart of a lion <3 when needed your there truly I thank ya <3 <3 Hugs to yous <3
01 Sep 14 by member: dreamcatcher10
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Good for you on your weight loss! I always tell myself to forgive someone who hurts me, because they must have been hurt by someone else. Dreamcatcher, hold your head up high and be proud of how much you have accomplished. (((((hugs)))))
01 Sep 14 by member: Deb_N
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So sorry someone hurt you. You are amazing, getting your ged in your 40's then deans list in college!!! You have drive and ambition. Don't let anyone drag you down !!!!
01 Sep 14 by member: wholefoodnut
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Chris...........last but sure not least <3 I love when ya share I'm very greatful to ya <3 you live factually and have a heart of a lion <3 thanks for your input <3 its wanted <3
01 Sep 14 by member: dreamcatcher10
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Thanks Miss Deb heads up <3 wholefoodnut <3 Like deb said very well when others hurt ya more often then not they have been hurt <3 but being able to sahre here what I cant in my world is safe and uplifting <3 even though at times being hurt does knock me off my feet for a moment not for life <3 Love you ladies <3 sweet dreams <3
01 Sep 14 by member: dreamcatcher10
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people have been mean to me to in the past. you just need not to lesson to them i have tried going low carb diet and slipped off of it a few times and people jump down my throat. So just keep telling your self that these people see something you are doing and reminds them of them self and feels they need to get on to you about it
01 Sep 14 by member: moonshadow13
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thanks for sharing moonshadow13 appreciate your words <3
01 Sep 14 by member: dreamcatcher10
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You will always have my support! Some people need to put others down to make themselves feel better. These people are to be pitied and all we can do is pray for them as their self esteem is so low. God Bless dreamcatcher10.
01 Sep 14 by member: MomjjjaLou
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02 Sep 14 by member: TAIC69
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02 Sep 14 by member: FitOKay
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A few quotes I found on line:
Stop letting people who do so little for you control so much of your mind, feelings & emotions.
- Will Smith
You can’t change how people feel about you, so don’t try. Just live your life and be happy.
Your doing great, be proud of your accomplishments, ignore the nay-sayers.
02 Sep 14 by member: Chillie Willie
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Chillie just reminded me of something I read YEARS ago...Think if yourself as a peach...you are the most beautiful, the juciest ripe peach, with no blemish or spots...unfortunately some people are allergic to peaches...no matter how hard you try you can't make yourself into a banana...That thought has helped me through many situations with difficult people in my life...maybe they just can't appreciate what they have in front of them...that's their loss, not a reflection on you!
02 Sep 14 by member: Hipaagrammy
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Chillie Willie & Hipaagrammy more then not I have been much stronger dealing with this stuff and for a fact I do share what Im going through good or sad ,, I believe all the pain I have had to deal with lately I'm just more vulnerable period <3 but I totally agree with the both of yous <3 just sometimes it hurts <3 sweet dreams <3
02 Sep 14 by member: dreamcatcher10
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Thank God for His grace and forgiveness because all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God. You are blessed to be one of His children and not everyone is. But even as His children we stumble. He will always be for there for us in our times of need so give praise for He is our strong tower, our Comforter. Also only God knows your heart so I wouldn't worry about what others say when they don't know you.
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