Kiki8123's Journal, 04 July 2014

Lost a pound! A tiny bit of disappointment that it wasn't more, but then remembered that last week was a big chunk. Exercised my a$$ off this week and changed up the routine by adding the kettlebells and TRX. Need to make better food choices and meal planning this week too. Stayed within the RDI, but not much in the way of healthy food or veggies. So, that's a goal for next week. So, I'm ultimately happy with the loss and can see the difference in my clothes. Just within the past 2 weeks, I've had approx 5 coworkers approach me saying they can tell I've lost weight! That's always a great thing, especially with people who see you daily.

A little stress this past week. As you know, boss is on vacation which means no overtime and I get to exercise after work and go home while it's still light outside. This means I get to see my hubby before he heads to bed (he works construction so is up super early to avoid the heat). However, his job has him working out of town all week - of course, starting the week my boss leaves for vacation! He just told me he'll be gone next week as well. Aghhhh!! We always say absence makes the heart grow fonder....and it does - we do miss each other and really enjoy spending our time together on the weekends. But crazy that his out of work coincides with my boss' vacation. Then , the third week of boss' vacation, hubby will prob be back (where I'd have one last week of freedom), except was told by work that they may want name to work out of town to train employees at one of our other offices. First thing I think about is, what will I do without my gym?! Ha. I'll have to get a hotel with a gym or make sure I get some walking in. The good part is that this office is in Monterey! Life is rough.

The other stress - my 24 year old daughter, who has been back home for about 6 mos after breaking up with an ex, is now seeing the ex again. Ugh. Not sure about them together and whether they're a good fit. She's been staying at the Ex's place this past week (after telling me they were going to take it slow...). They both need to get their shit together - get better jobs, go to school, grow up.... Daughter was complaining about car not starting yesterday. I gave her all the info about her insurance and their roadside assistance. Explained that's why she has a savings account (she was grumbling when her dad told her the cost of a battery). I explained she'd better hope it's just a battery as that's a cheap fix. This is a big source of my stress and what caused me to gain weight these past several years from her later teen years til now. My daughter suffers from depression (as do many in my family - my husbands mother took her own life) so I tend to coddle her a bit more than I probably should. Hubby is more of the disciplinarian. It's a fine line between keeping the peace between them, yet respecting hubby's opinions (which, after I think about it, are usually correct). I blame myself for not pushing my daughter more because of the depression (I think an excuse on my part, not hers) as she should be much farther along in life than being a waitress (part time) at 24 years and not attending school and living at home. I excuse it by saying we don't pay any of her expenses, except for the roof over her head. She's always talking about job hunting and putting in applications here and there, yet nothing ever comes of it. She had an interview recently, but no call back yet. She keeps saying she wants to go back to school, yet hasn't done anything about it. So, that's all on her. So, it's getting to the point again where we tell her to either start paying us rent, or .... Where to draw the line? I want to help her, yet she's an adult and needs to learn to do this on her own. I've not offered her any money or help with her car, other than looking up the info re insurance roadside assistance for her. She needs to learn this herself. But, it's so hard not to call and check in every second. Last I heard she was going to get car to a place to test the battery (it wasn't starting). I haven't heard back from her yet and am wondering how she will get to work. Another reason I'm concerned about the ex (who doesn't have a car) - her phone calls and/or texts to me don't come as often as I like. My daughter and I have a great relationship - yet I need to learn (hard to admit I'm still learning when she's 24) how to "parent." I just love her soooo much.

Okay, wow, that was a lot. Not gonna let the stress bring me down like usual. Heading to visit my mom today (it's her birthday - 4th of July baby - thinks the fireworks are all for her) and my brother's family for a BBQ. Hope everyone has a happy fourth (or a happy Friday to my outside of US friends)!!!! Thanks for listening!

198.6 lb Lost so far: 28.0 lb.    Still to go: 23.6 lb.    Diet followed reasonably well.

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987 kcal

Fat: 60.77g | Prot: 33.63g | Carb: 76.74g.   Lunch: Butter, Corn On The Cob with Butter, Potato Salad, Heluva Good French Onion Sour Cream Dip, Lay's Wavy Original Potato Chips, Denny's Sliced Tomatoes (3 Slices), Great Value Enriched Hamburger Buns, Ground Beef (80% Lean / 20% Fat, Patty, Cooked, Broiled), Lettuce, Mustard, Mayonnaise . more...