( just a warning... this is kind of graphic :( sorry )
I was at work Saturday evening when I got a call from my brother that my mom and step-dad had been in a motorcycle accident. All we knew was that my step-dads arm was hurt, and my mom was unconscious at the scene. Someone pulled out in front of them on the highway and slammed on they're brakes. My step-dad tried to slow down slowly, but the car completely stopped in front of them, then took off really fast. He hit the hand brakes and my mom was thrown from the bike :( my step dad lost control and fell off of it.
They Life Flighted her to a hospital about 3 hours away from where I live. ( She lives up there )
I called someone to come in for me and we drove up that night. I was so scared the entire way. Trying not to stress to much for the baby, but I kept getting updates from my brother and sisters and it was so scary. They had to drill a hole in her head to release fluid because her brain was swelling. but they weren't telling us much.
When I got there my aunt took me aside and talked to me before I went to see my mom. She said it was really really bad.. .like whatever I was imagining.. it was worse, and she just wanted to prepare me before I saw her.
I started balling the second I saw her : ( I've never seen anything like it before. It was so hard to believe that it was my moms beautiful face behind all the bruises and cuts. :( Her head was swollen and her eyes were completely black. Her brain was swelling and bleeding so much that her eyes, nose, and ears were bleeding :'( I stood next to her bed for hours squeezing her hand praying to God to wake her up.. but she never did. She never moved :( They pronounced her Brain dead the next morning :'(
My step-dad had been on a different floor in the hospital because all he had was a dislocated elbow and a couple cuts and bruises... so he didn't even get to see my mom until the next morning... after they had already pronounced her. He was yelling and crying and saying it was a mistake... :( It was the hardest thing I've ever had to face in my life. I still can't believe I'll never see her beautiful face again or hug her.. or that she wont be here when I have my first child.
We found out Thursday what the baby is, and it's a girl. I started crying during the Ultrasound and the poor guy was like " aww sweetie, did I do something wrong? .. did you want a boy? " I was crying so hard my mother in law had to tell him why I was upset. I finally calmed down so I could talk and I told him that my mom wanted a girl so badly, and kept telling me it was one. I just wish she was there so I could tell her :( and she could tell me " I told you so ". I'm still not okay.. I don't think I'll ever be okay with it.. I just hope it gets easier to deal with sooner than later.. :(
My mom was 42 years old.
