Annabelle3117's Journal, 24 April 2014

Good morning everyone! A little late this morning as I had to take my little one to kindergarten screening. Ugh, so boring... and in my opinion, pointless. Oh well, done now. Came home ravenous, ate a couple eggs and toast. Finally feeling myself again lol. I'm a real life version of that snickers commercial, not me when I'm hungry.

Shiratake pasta review: Meh, not for me. They weren't terrible, they really weren't. I ate it. But, if you ever played with that slime called 'gak' when you were a kid, or maybe your kids did, they kind of smell like gak, and leave a gak aftertaste. (okay so I never actually tasted the gak, but they leave a gak smell aftertaste lol) They are very gelatinous, the texture is odd. (Made from a yam, in case you were wondering) Like I said, they weren't terrible, and they are more like a pasta than the spaghetti squash but I've decided that for me I'm going to with more of a "Bella" approach to pasta. When I feel like I want it I will have a moderate portion of the real thing. It was worth a try though, in my opinion, and if your curious I would recommend you give it a try as well.

Another good day behind me in terms of intake and output. I'm on a roll. And as a friend of mine stated, I think I'll do better over the weekends now because I'm not going to have that validated loss on Friday. "Oh, I lost two pounds, I can take a break over the weekend and eat like a banshee." Right now I'm still coasting off the swimming suit high from yesterday, as well as wearing a pair of jeans that were tight when I bought them but now fit comfortably. I will let those two things be my success marker for the week.

I do think I will be taking the day off from my 'intentional exercise' goal though. My knees were a little sore this morning, and I don't want to overdo it. Swimming would be an ideal workout for today, but alas no swimsuit. And tot watch is only available in the morning, so I've missed that. Ah well, I need a break anyway.

I have had some really bad anxiety lately. Yesterday evening it was like an elephant had sat on my chest... all night. I think my primary stress is obviously my family situation. I had a nightmare the night before last that my mother had called me to tell me my brother had died. Woke up with a sopping wet pillow. It's crazy though because then I'll have panic attacks thinking about completely random things. Making problems out of things that were said and done almost a decade ago. I wish I could shut it all off, or run away.... far far away, and never return!

I find it odd though, how despite the whirlwind of emotion I have actually been taking better care of myself. Treating myself, so to speak. A very wise wonderful woman I call Bella once planted an idea in my head along the lines of taking care of yourself the way that you take care of others. Treating yourself the way you would treat them. This immediately hit home for me because I will always prepare special meals for my loved ones, or plan special trips for them. I often surprise my husband with gifts that I plan for months and months in advance. I do nothing for me. I'm never thinking of things that I would like, or how to make them a reality, so I'm a trying to learn to love myself the way I love my family. I bought some fancy pants skin care stuff, (I've never had flawless skin) and have been religiously using it. I know, doesn't sound like much to some of you, but for me it's huge lol. This upcoming week I think I will plan one special thing for me, I deserve it. Now what the heck would a gal like me like? lol

Wish I could go on a long quiet walk today... it's one of my favorite things. Too cold though, and little man would not like my four mile speed walks lol. Maybe tomorrow. Saying a little prayer to make it through the day unscathed, weekend is almost here.

Hoping all of my wonderful, and very much appreciated, buddies have a great day!!

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1588 kcal

Fat: 79.90g | Prot: 106.86g | Carb: 116.29g.   Breakfast: Coffee-Mate Original Powder Creamer, Nickles Light 35 Wheat Bread, Egg, Blue Bonnet Butter. Lunch: Tasty Bird Boneless Skinless Chicken Thighs, Shrimp fried rice, Nickles Light 35 Wheat Bread, Kraft Miracle Whip Dressing, Eggland's Best Hard Cooked Peeled Eggs. Dinner: American Value Green Beans (Canned), Sweet Potato, Beef Chuck (Arm Pot Roast, Trimmed to 1/8" Fat). Snacks/Other: M&M's Minis Chocolate Candies (Fun Size), Dannon Light & Fit Yogurt - Strawberry (Container), Sargento Colby Jack Cheese Sticks. more...

2295 kcal

Activities & Exercise: Walking (moderate) - 3/mph - 1 hour, Resting - 15 hours, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...