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Met my NSV of running a half marathon this past Saturday. Very pleased with my time. I had ran half marathons twice in my 20s, once at age 23 and once at 28. I finished just five minutes slower than the time I finished it when I was 23 and nearly a half hour faster than my time at age 28. I'm like wine, I get better with time. Haha.
I had a strong finish and the marathon training really made meeting this NSV a piece of cake. I'm not saying the full marathon will be a piece of cake. I'm intimidated. I'm scared. But, I'm also determined. I don't care about my pace. I am just focused on crossing that finish line. I am suppose to be in "taper" right now as I am counting down the last 13 days. So, for the next two weeks, I have no runs over 8 miles scheduled. My weekday runs are much shorter as well. What this translates to is....I have to do a better job with my food choices. I haven't made the best of choices the last few days. The day before the race, I was in fact carb-loading and ate a metric ton of pasta. The problem is...the day after was Easter and I just couldn't stop celebrating. And, today of course I fell right back into the pattern of not being able to shove enough junk in my mouth. The timing of the month has something to do with it too. Hey...at least after the finish line Saturday I was able to celebrate with a nice cold beer. But, of course, as is typical...the Easter bunny left no eggs in my basket. It's a bummer, but I'm trying to stay upbeat about it. Maybe I should register for yet another marathon to distract myself from my infinite infertility? Hehe.
The weekend did not start off well. Husband had another anxiety spell. That's a nice way of saying that he turned into the Incredible Hulk. Post-heart attack rage and anxiety ??? I wish the doctor had prescribed Xanax so that either he could take them to avoid these "fits" or I could so I could be oblivious to them. Unfortunately, I was not home when it occurred. Instead, I got the meek phone call from our daughter whispering that she was scared and a separate call from my son who was trying to downplay the ordeal by terming it a "slight conniption fit." I came home to find that the daughter's version was perhaps more accurate and to top it off he frightened one of our dogs so badly that the dog has run off and not been home since Thursday. I spent all Thursday/Friday morning searching for him to no avail. I've checked the pound and called the local animal control officer. It is totally uncharacteristic for him to run off. I have three dogs. The two female dogs are still home and fine. But my older male dog is a bit of a weirdo and is super intimidated by men. He was a rescue that I have had for the last four or five years. He came from a place where there was Domestic Violence and I think that it must've just freaked him out when my husband flew into a rage, which was never characteristic of my husband's demeanor pre-heart attack. As most of you who read my journals know, I am a huge animal-lover. My dogs and horses have my heart. Please send out a little prayer he is ok and finds it in his heart to come home soon. Now that the dust is settled and my husband realizes what he spazzed about was not really a big deal, I believe that he feels pretty awful about it. If he didn't, I might've taken the lead from my dog and ran away too. His apologies seem sincere. He just isn't acting like himself since the heart attack. It's like he has lost impulse/anger control. I ate something awful...mostly prodded on by emotions. It isn't a valid excuse. I've learned other methods of controlling my emotions besides eating. But, I'm human. So, I'm just going to own that I overate. A lot. And, tonight I'm going to bicycle myself right back into control, plan out my meals for the rest of the week and do what I know how to do. No excuses. Just time to do what I know.
This is a new week. I hope the sun shines all week long and we all have the strength and fortitude to make it over every obstacle so we can bask in our successes.
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Diet Calendar Entries for 21 April 2014:
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2076 kcal
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Fat: 96.28g | Prot: 62.83g | Carb: 239.51g.
Breakfast: Cupcake with Icing, Mashed Potato, Macaroni or Noodles with Cheese, Mayonnaise, Egg, Food Lion Homestyle Cole Slaw, Sister Schubert's Dinner Yeast Rolls, Gwaltney Spiral Sliced Brown Sugar Glazed Ham. Lunch: Taco Bell Chili Cheese Burrito, Taco Bell Nachos Supreme. Dinner: World's Finest Chocolate Milk Chocolate Bar. more...
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2651 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Bicycling (moderate) - 13/mph - 1 hour and 25 minutes, Sleeping - 22 hours and 35 minutes. more...
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