Ruhu's Journal, 18 February 2014

Finally got a good nights sleep… and boy does it feel good! Yes, fatigue is a big factor for me in how easy or more difficult it is to live & eat mindfully. After less mindfulness on Sunday as the day went on, yesterday was right back on track & the construction of my mindful roadway continues today.

I sent DH an email yesterday about how I'd been feeling since our argument on Sat about the charity event. It's been stuck on my mind as its a recurring debate/source of disagreement. I wanted to be sure that while he doesn't feel the same, I at least tried my best to explain how I feel in general about how we choose to spend our time together. As I'd mentioned, we also talked a bit about it on Valentines Day & he shared that he'd like us to be able to spend more time together on weekends or other free time. But, I wanted to be sure he understood that while I too would like to spend more time with him, it's just that for me, with him, not with him socializing with friends. For me, there's a difference which we've never distinguished before. He thanked me for the note & said he really appreciated it. I'm not sure if I'll get a written response too or not… but I did get a good nights sleep!

So, that gets me on to my day… more snow!, paddle tennis just canceled so off to the gym before the worst of it hits, but first, I'll pray --

God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.

Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
Amen.

And I'll pray, breathe, log, journal & express my way on this one day, and each one meal, moment, bite, thought & emotion. I'm so grateful for each of Outstanding you, my family & IRL friends, and the health & wealth to live this life I love! xoxox

Diet Calendar Entries for 18 February 2014:
1311 kcal Fat: 58.00g | Prot: 88.00g | Carb: 131.00g.   Breakfast: Primal Nutrition Primal Fuel - Vanilla Coconut Creme, Spectrum Naturals Organic Coconut Oil, Harmless Harvest 100% Raw Coconut Water, Lactaid 100% Lactose Free Fat Free Milk. Lunch: Primal Nutrition Primal Fuel - Chocolate Coconut, Lactaid 100% Lactose Free Fat Free Milk. Dinner: Stew Leonard's Healthy Eggplant Tomato Bisque, The Chia Co Chia Pod Blueberry. Snacks/Other: Evolve Greek Kefir, Raw Green Smoothie. more...
1753 kcal Activities & Exercise: Calisthenics (heavy, e.g. pushups) - 1 hour, Sleeping - 8 hours, Resting - 15 hours. more...

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Ahhhh Ruth a good sleep does wonders and glad you had a good talk with DH and feel better :) 
18 Feb 14 by member: newmooney
Love a goo sleep...We have to keep changing in each phase of our marriage...Hope you find a happy medium...Hugs...:O) 
18 Feb 14 by member: BHA
Wow Ru you sure are on a roll now - the more you open up and be the real you...the easier it gets and the more restful you will become - enjoy :) 
18 Feb 14 by member: triaby
Yay! We both slept well last night. I wondered when I woke from my wonderful night of rest if you'd had the same. I like that you made that distinction with DH... that spending time 'with' him was 'him' - not being part of the entourage of people he 'seems' to need to surround himself with; that's a tough one. I wonder if that is merely a male trait? Perhaps we should do a survey? Cutty always seemed much more happier, lively, content, when he was in the mix of events, surrounded by his buddies, etc. I was 'allowed' to 'enter their treehouse' from time to time, sure. But when it was just the two of us, early in the marriage before he grew so ill, he seemed restless, uncomfortable, ill at ease. THEN AGAIN ... I had to reflect that we had lived separate lives much like you describe yours because of my work travel and constantly TRIED to tell my insecure soul that he wasn't ill at ease 'with just me' ... it was just not the routine he'd built for himself in my absence. Kind of like, when we leave home now without a cell phone ... we feel odd... wondering what calls we may be missing, wondering what we'll do if we need to call for something. I can't help but wonder that most guys bond in groups where we as women seem to bond in pairs ... and maybe that's all that's going on with your DH trying to readjust to a marital relationship of pairs, rather than flocks :-) 
18 Feb 14 by member: FullaBella
I think Bella is right. I have to admit, I am going to be in the same boat when my DH retires next year. I am finding he is a bit irritable when we are together. Maybe I have become a moron since I have been alone so much the last 6 years. I used to be a real wit when I interacted everyday with people in my job. LOL! OH well. He and I need to work on that now before he retires, I think. :) 
18 Feb 14 by member: Mom2Boxers
It is always good to tell each other how we feel. I think response or not it was a great thing to do. You said what you thought and he received. That's a great start. Glad you got a good rest. I didn't do well in the sleep department last night. Hoping for better tonight. Have another good rest tonight Ruth!! 
18 Feb 14 by member: chattycathy1955

     
 

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