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Very bad weekend from the emotions point of view. I spent the whole Sunday crying, thinking about the past, my family, what I achieved and failed in life. It has been tough.
I have been able to sleep late, at about 1.30am. Feeling very tired today, at least in "clear mind" mood. Writing down the resolutions/aims for this new year.
I think the best gift for myself would be accepting myself as I am, about all sides of my personality and attitudes. It's not going to be easy, but I owe it to myself.
I had emotional eating episodes during the weekend and during Xmas holidays. Feeling a bit worried I am going too many steps back in my way out of emotional eating and dealing with bad emotions. I have to consider that it's the second Xmas without my mum and my ex-husband. All of a sudden, within 6months, I have lost two very important persons in my life and that's not easy. Going back to my father's place means having back a lot of memories about both of them. It's not easy to deal with all that stuff all of a sudden.
I really hope to get back to my routine. As some FS Buddies suggested, it will help me to get back also in my positive before-Xmas mood. I hope it will.
Also, I haven't been doing any sports during holidays, apart from hiking in the mountains one afternoon and walking the dog out a few times. It's so little, compared to what I do here. At least I go walking every day for 30 minutes and if it's too cold or too rainy, I workout at home. Sports really help me relaxing and dealing with emotions in a more positive way.
I haven't been writing my gratitude list for a while, will start today again.
Things I am thankful for:
-Health
-Support from friends and FS buddies
-A new start, every day :)
-Feeling home in this little German town
-My new life after all the past years' "storms"
Life is good!!!
Diet Calendar Entries for 07 January 2013:
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1642 kcal
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Fat: 76.41g | Prot: 79.88g | Carb: 159.57g.
Breakfast: espresso, Latte Intero, egg white, Uovo all'occhio di Bue, Pane di Segale, Olio Extra Vergine di Oliva. Lunch: Purè di Patate fatto con il Latte (Fresco), Olio Extra Vergine di Oliva, Pomodori Ciliegini, Salsiccia di Maiale Fresca. Dinner: Yogurt al Naturale. Snacks/Other: Pane di Segale, Carne Macinata di Manzo Impanata o a Polpette, Piselli Cotti (in Scatola). more...
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2246 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Sitting - 5 hours, Dance (fast step, aerobic) - 1 hour, Resting - 6 hours, Sleeping - 8 hours, Housework - 4 hours. more...
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So sorry, Lizzie. That so tough. Definitely accept who you are and even the past (and loss) for it's contribution to who you've become. HUGS. And look forward, girl. Do you have any places to climb where you are? I can't wait to hear your goals for 2013. Details, details.
07 Jan 13 by member: Helewis
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Thanks a lot, Helewis! I asked my climbing-buddies about going next weekend to the climbing gym nearby. Great advice! I really need that! Just in case they cannot, I'll go bouldering in that gym (so, I can go alone since I wont need a rope and somebody to hold it). Resolutions for 2013 will be here in a few days :)
07 Jan 13 by member: Lizzie983
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Looking forward to them, Lizzie girl. The climbing (or bouldering) will do you wonders!
07 Jan 13 by member: Helewis
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Well Lizzie, I hope your routine can help put that stuff behind you. As I said in my journal, I am trying to be more positive and cheerful too. I see you had quite a few changes lately, and I dont think you should look at anything yet as a failure, we're never done here. So, hang in there and good luck with your routine!
07 Jan 13 by member: posterchild66
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I agree with needing to get exercise to help combat the sad feelings. We just need to build new habits. Instead of eating when upset try motivating yourself to go walking or something. Replace emotional eating with new healthy habits. Hope your friends go with you for the extra support your needing right now. Also i don't see you having to start over. You already have realized what you have been doing and are taking steps to change it. I am sorry your heart is so heavy with sadness though. I really do pray you feel better soon.
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I am so sorry to hear you had an emotional sunday. I can relate, and I agree, exercise, or anything that will change your thoughts is a great way to go through it. It is good to face things, but it is also good to give your brain some rest. And from the previous journals I read, you are definitely not a failure, by any means!!I hope today is a better day...
07 Jan 13 by member: barbabella
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Hey Lizzie...sending hugs to you! Sometimes a good cry is just what we need to kind of 'cleanse' ourselves. I hope it helped you and that you can get back into your routines. I think the exercise will help you with the endorphines and the extra 'feel good' feelings. You are a stong and smart woman and I know you will come through this period and end up on top.
07 Jan 13 by member: jaime30024
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