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Happy Monday morning! :)
I had a very intense day yesterday. I went out for brunch with an Italian friend. It was nice talking to her, she's having a hard time. At the moment it's easier for me to relate to people who are having a bad time, rather than happy shiny people.
I did good, I had eggs and bacon and did not eat bread. I am supposed not to eat gluten, since I feel sick afterwards. When I am home it's no problem, when I am eating at friends or in a café/restaurant I am always tempted.
Then I came back home, packed my stuff and went to the nearby pond to sunbath and read. It has been an amazing day yesterday, 37°C (98°F) with low humidity and no clouds! I really enjoyed laying down in the sun, and my ice coffee :) Then met an acquaintance who's always doing crazy things, like free climbing and snowboarding. And he asked me whether I wanted to try diving into the local river by jumping from a bridge....and I said: why not????!!!! :) :) :)
It's been a long time since I tried doing something new and full of adrenaline.
When I was on the edge of the bridge, 3,5 meter height from the water level, I was sooooooo scared!!! I thought there was no fun part!!! And I started thinking about other scary things I actually did in life and I succeeded. And there was basically zero risk, since the river is deep enough and I am able to swim. So, 20 minutes of doubt, with 20 people looking at me (divers from a bridge attract a lot of attention in this little town!!!). Then two guys helped me and kept my hands in theirs and we jumped together. I was freightened to death in those few seconds when I could see the water getting closer to me. But then I dived deep into the river.
It was great!!! So awesome!!! Such a good feeling!!!
I still remember when my body was slowly approaching the surface of the river from below, it was fantastic!
Then I tried again, and it was great as well!!! :)
I am so happy I have been able to do something like this!!! :)
Then I came back home, took a shower and when to a bbq.
Good thing is that I am making new friends and am able to be in a social context without having that "escape" feeling or start crying (as it was till some months ago).
I have been able to stay away from bread, chips and cola, but I had a second sausage I could have avoided and drunk a bottle of beer. Its not because of the calories, I am just not used to drink and especially when it's hot weather. I felt like as I drunk 10 tequilas when I came back home.
It has been a day full of emotions: fear, relief, adrenaline, relax and understanding. It took me 4 hours to fall asleep, I was exhausted but somehow could not sleep. I feel indeed tired today!
I am starting to accept things as they are. I don't have the energy to carry on my work projects now, and they are going to be given to somebody else. There will be other opportunities, I hope.
Life is what happens, not what we would ideally want it to be.
Today I am thankful for:
-diving into the river yesterday!
-good morning coffee, I found a better brand!
-making new friends
-accepting every day as it comes, trying to make the best out of it.
As Kingkeld says, "life is good"!
Diet Calendar Entries for 20 August 2012:
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1071 kcal
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Fat: 39.07g | Prot: 44.83g | Carb: 150.17g.
Breakfast: Chick peas cream, Avocado cream, Gallette di Riso Integrali ai Multicereali. Lunch: melon, Spremuta di Pompelmo, Prosciutto Crudo. Dinner: Grape, corn. Snacks/Other: vanilla ice cream, Cioccolato Dolce o Amaro. more...
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1989 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Swimming (moderate) - 20 minutes, Sitting - 4 hours, Walking (moderate) - 3/mph - 1 hour, Resting - 8 hours and 40 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours, Housework - 2 hours. more...
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