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Day 24 of 65
mood: low
food: thought i was eating okay
activity level: low and totally unmotivated to do anything.
Grateful / thankful for:
comments on my journals and posts
fs buddies who help me see things in different lights
seeing beauty that surrounds me
knowing right from wrong
family
my job
guardians who guide me
Yesterday was not a good day, I had little to no energy and basically craved sleep. I feel like I am stuck in a negative vortex that I am fighting to keep others out of. Funny I see sadness and want to help, but yet I do not want the help for myself.
Today I just feel like I am existing, and I am hoping that my food does not reflect my mood. I do not know which would be more deprimental eating too little or eating too much... such a balancing act and I am truly frightened that I may fall off the tight rope.
just like john cougar sang " and the walls come tumbling down..."
or I forget the group but "everybody hurts sometimes"
Just need to keep telling myself.. it's only a dip.. I will resurface and I refuse to stay at the bottom.. :(
Diet Calendar Entries for 11 September 2012:
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1098 kcal
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Fat: 23.41g | Prot: 35.43g | Carb: 195.73g.
Breakfast: Multi Grain Cheerios, Coffee, No Calorie Sweetener (Packets), White Sugar (Granulated or Lump), True Almond Vanilla, Lemon, Water. Lunch: Gala Apples, Water, Bananas. Dinner: 100% Whole Wheat Bread, Margarine, Cooked Cauliflower (Fat Not Added in Cooking), Firm Silken Tofu. Snacks/Other: Pears, Water. more...
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1793 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Housework - 30 minutes, Walking (moderate) - 3/mph - 30 minutes, Walking (exercise) - 3.5/mph - 20 minutes, Desk Work - 8 hours, Resting - 7 hours, Sleeping - 7 hours and 40 minutes. more...
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 Comments
sorry to hear that you are feeling so low. I hope today is a much better day!
11 Sep 12 by member: cindylynnwho
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11 Sep 12 by member: pam-u-la
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These days will not last. But in the meantime, be kind to yourself. Emotional wellness is as important as your physical wellness. Maybe today a comfy blanket is your "healthy" snack.
11 Sep 12 by member: Meonlybetter
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Oh my! You are really feeling low when you resort to quoting REM. {{{{shivers and chills}}}}. When you are feeling that low, nothing seems easy or worth the struggle...I find that if I make myself hit bottom...my mood turns around faster. Watch a movie that you know is heart breaking. I have a whole CD of songs that I know make me cry. I go in my car, windows up until I scream my rage. Sometimes the chemicals in your body are just in a low spell. Crying sometimes releases those chemicals. Thinking of you.
11 Sep 12 by member: jessabridge4444
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Sometimes I think we have the lows so we can appreciate the highs...tomorrow will be better....chin up Pam2 :)
11 Sep 12 by member: triaby
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Praying for your "dark" time for only last for a moment and that you find your "light" time real soon. Hugs for you too!
11 Sep 12 by member: Neptunebch
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:( sorry. Get you some extra rest when you can.
11 Sep 12 by member: QuirkyNat
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Thank you everyone. Tomorrow is a new day.. just survive through this one. BIG HUGZ TO ALL!!!
11 Sep 12 by member: pam-u-la
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Sorry you're feeling blue. We are here to listen, keep journaling and get it out.
11 Sep 12 by member: ppphhhttt
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