NightRain

I come from a large German family, and when I say large I don't mean there are a lot of us. Growing up my mom was the only thin member of my family and that's because she is a sickly person. As a child my best friend was taller than me and much thinner. Her mother dragged the two of us in the house one day to show her friend how much fatter I was than her daughter. It took me twelve years to realize that being larger than Tara wasn't really saying much, but by then I really was overweight. Its kind of irritating. For all the years I was a slender active person I thought I was fat, now that I realize I was a normal size girl I really am overweight.

After high school I started working at a restaurant that gave employees a 50% discount on food. I went from 130 lbs to 170 lbs in six months. Over the years I just got slowly larger. My husband and I were having marital problems and I got the idea that getting slimmer would help. 50 lbs later he left me for a girl who weighs 115 lbs soaking wet. I know the weight really wasn't the issue, but I fell off the diet wagon quick. Two years laster I'm back up to my pre-diet weight and I'm sick of it. So back on the diet I go!