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07 January 2013
The sugar cravings lasted three days, during which I had a dream that a doctor told me that if I didn't eat the things my body was craving, I would die the next time my period started. It was seriously weird. I'll definitely bring it up with the program behaviorist on Thursday and my psychiatrist next week.
It is possible that there are times when our bodies need things that we normally consider "bad" for us? I only gained two pounds from my splurges, and they came off overnight after a single day of sticking to my program again. I feel like, somehow, this has something to do with the cravings themselves, but I'm not sure how. I'm just relieved that they're over.
I'm setting a new mini-goal for myself. Every year I host an Academy Awards party, and I would love to be down to 207 by February 24th. That's a pretty ambitious goal (about three pounds a week), but it would feel so great. My aunt and uncle always come, and they haven't seen me since my sister's wedding in July. How fun would it be to answer the door fifty pounds lighter than the last time they saw me?
Obviously, sticking to my program is going to be important. It's time I started exercising without over-exerting myself, too, so as soon and I'm done writing this I'm going to put on my running shoes, tie my hair back, and walk slowly on the treadmill for ten minutes. Then maybe some gentle yoga. It's a small start, but it's a start.
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04 January 2013
Yesterday was a nightmare. It was a perfect storm of depression, OCD, and PMS. I've fallen into a depression since Christmas (not sure why), and I've been having intense food cravings. I just start thinking about sugar and can't stop. Yesterday I was determined not to give in, but the longer I resisted, the worse the cravings became. I'm talking about intrusive thoughts that wouldn't stop. By about ten last night, I was having a full-blown panic attack. I took some medication, but that didn't help much. I was paralyzed. Finally my boyfriend suggested that we go to the store and buy what I was craving, and then I got completely hysterical. I couldn't bear the thought of giving in, and I couldn't think about anything except sweets.
"This is not normal," my boyfriend said. "Something is seriously wrong here."
Finally, I got so worked up that I started thinking about suicide. I felt like I would be a thoroughly bad person if I gave in, that it would mean I was weak and pathetic. But the thoughts were so loud that I couldn't focus on anything else. I kept thinking, This is absurd. It's just food. I didn't eat sugar for seven straight weeks before Christmas.
My boyfriend convinced me to go to the store with him. I was so frightened of the bakery section that I couldn't walk through it. He picked everything out and then when we got in the car he handed me a doughnut and told me to eat it. Five minutes after I did, I realized that my thoughts had wandered to some gossip I'd seen on a magazine cover in the store. For the first time in six hours, I'd thought about something other than food. Today I feel tired and have a bit of a headache, but I'm not thinking much about food (except that I'm waiting for my empty stomach pills to dissolve so I can have my protein shake and a cup of coffee).
So, what on earth is going on here? I know that the comorbidity rate between OCD and eating disorders is huge. But this isn't a pattern with me. I'm really terrified of it happening again. I don't want to eat sugar anymore, and I don't want to spend my time obsessing about what I can't have. And why did this come on so suddenly when I did well for so long? I just doesn't make any sense.
If anyone has any ideas of what might have happened or how to deal with it, I'd love to hear them.
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04 January 2013
Weigh-in:
230.5 lb
lost so far:
34.5 lb
still to go:
65.5 lb
Diet followed poorly
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losing 2.1 lb a week
28 December 2012
My weight loss slowed considerably over the holidays. I pretty much let myself have whatever I wanted for two days, which wasn't quite what the behaviorist in my program recommended. I was encouraged to maintain, though, rather than try to lose more weight, and I've come down a pound, so everything is all right, and the last two days I've been back on track with my shakes and bars and all that.
Actually, the weight loss has been slowing for the last month or so. This is probably normal, since I was losing four to six pounds a week for a while, and now I'm losing about three. The behaviorist says that as long as I'm still losing reliably, I'm in good shape, but I do want to step it up in the new year. It's time to start exercising. So far my experiments with exercise have indicated that I'll get a fibro backlash if I walk for more than twenty minutes (or ice skate for fifteen, but I should have anticipated that). This week I'm actually going to follow the doctor's suggestion and try a ten-minute walk every other day. I must be able to start somewhere.
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28 December 2012
Weigh-in:
232.6 lb
lost so far:
32.4 lb
still to go:
67.6 lb
Diet followed poorly
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losing 0.8 lb a week
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