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Sjoe, where do I begin. Today is the last day
I'm being this Jeanelle. Years of bad eating behaviours, poor food choices, overeating, low self-image, negative attitude, no accountability for what I put in my mouth, complacency, no pride has all boiled down to this. This Jeanelle easily ate a block of cheese per evening. There were days that I could not focus on anything but food. I could not lift a finger - other than search for food to eat. Especially Gouda. No one understands it. I'd love to live in a world where we didn't know of food, the joy it brings or the human need to survive. Tomorrow I change for my future, for my health and most importantly for ME - my soul, my sanity, my self-esteem. I vow to never apply the Slim my Face function again to my photos. I vow to find something good in EVERY photo that I see of myself. I vow to send the little voice in my head for an anger management course. I have 2 years left until I'm 30 fucking years old. And no - I won't fail this time.
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230.8 lb
Lost so far: 0 lb.
Still to go: 54.5 lb.
Diet followed reasonably well.
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gaining 3.3 lb a week
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