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Bad bad day yesterday. It was depressing. The more I moped, the more I binged. A ridiculous state. I'm disappointed in my weakness, my metal block to not be able to stop one bad choice. The bad choice PIZZA, which I lamented, I snowballed down. This was the 1st time I felt like a drug addict. I had always been dumbfounded by junkie gone clean that relapses. I really cant get over how I struggled to take positive control. I had no idea this would feel so difficult. This is a large hurdle that I need to focus on & control. I'm so glad that no one I know can see this or how weak I was. I was neither a good leader or follower. I don't want another unplanned crash. It would feel great to plan philly steak and cake for my birthday; Instead of this random malaise of debauchery snacking. Now that I feel self-aware, I'm prepared to be stronger.
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244.0 lb
Lost so far: 8.5 lb.
Still to go: 4.0 lb.
Diet followed 100%.
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Diet Calendar Entries for 22 August 2014:
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1599 kcal
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Fat: 46.55g | Prot: 62.52g | Carb: 252.18g.
Breakfast: townsend farms Townsend Farms Triple Berry Blend Frozen Berries, Dole Frozen Blueberries, Quaker Quick 1-Minute Oats. Lunch: Private Selection Turkey Breast Savory Black Peppered, Midnight Beauty Black Seedless Grapes, Earth's Pride Organics Baby-Cut Carrots, Publix Red Seedless Grapes. Dinner: Subway 12" Sweet Onion Chicken Teriyaki. Snacks/Other: Act II Butter Lover's Popcorn, Keebler Fudge Shoppe Fudge Sticks, On The Border Tortilla Chips, Nature Valley Protein Chewy Bars - Peanut Butter Dark Chocolate. more...
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3347 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Bicycling (slow) - 11/mph - 1 hour, Driving - 1 hour, Resting - 14 hours, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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losing 3.5 lb a week
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