AuntieJan's Journal, 05 April 2011

I guess I'm allowed one day of funk every once in a while. Yesterday was a rough day and I was already a bit tired, even Erin said I looked tired during our session.

But that was yesterday and today is today, I still have some depressed feelings but it's retreating. I will soon look back on this time with fond memories and remember that this was the time I took the reins and made a major lifestyle change, not only in the type of foods I am eating and hitting the gym with purpose and drive, but in all aspects of my being.

I did a lot of thinking, crying, reading and praying yesterday, and as scary as it is to someone like me that has been to hell and back and lived to tell the tale, I think I am ready. Would I have preferred more time? Yep. But sometimes we don't get to call the shots, and if I have learned nothing during these 8 or 9 months it is how to adapt to life's changes using healthy coping skills and a positive viewpoint. At least I stuck it out this time and didn't head for the hills when the going got tough.

In my view I haven't truly been put to the test yet. For many weeks I have had the safety and comfort of having Erin there on a regular basis to coach me and guide me through whatever problems that presented themselves. So now it's time to be a grown up, stop whining and get on with it.

It has been a wild ride, but oh so very worth it. Even though Erin claims that she is just the facilitator, I know differently. You see, I am one of those people that believe in 6 degrees of separation. I truly believe that it was the right place and right time and the right person that intervened into my sorry, crappy life.

Somebody... anybody... please slap me if I start writing about butterflies emerging from cocoons or any sappy stuff like that.

256.0 lb Lost so far: 22.0 lb.    Still to go: 106.0 lb.    Diet followed 100%.

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1301 kcal

Fat: 31.63g | Prot: 74.09g | Carb: 191.06g.   Breakfast: Skim Milk, peanut butter, Crunchy Granola Bars - Cinnamon, coffee. Lunch: red beans, Uncle Bens Whole Grain Rice, Publix Boneless Skinless Chicken Breast. Dinner: Steamfresh Brown and Wild Rice with Corn, Carrots and Peas, Roasted Broiled or Baked Chicken Breast (Skin Not Eaten), green grapes. Snacks/Other: peanut butter, graham crackers, diet green tea, v8 diet splash, Weight Watchers Ice Cream Bars - Giant Chocolate Fudge, green grapes. more...

3428 kcal

Activities & Exercise: Shopping - 1 hour, Desk Work - 3 hours, Resting - 10 hours and 40 minutes, Stretching (yoga) - 15 minutes, Housework - 1 hour, Walking (exercise) - 3.5/mph - 5 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...