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Up much, much too early for a Saturday. Headachey. Feeling better now. But now I am up. Oh well. Coffee in hand, thoughts about laundry, thoughts about Pilates, cleaning the oven. Maybe I will get lucky and there is a nap in my future.
It is a balmy 34 degrees here. Dislike. Mostly because along with the balmy temperature (for January) there is rain. Of course it is on top of significant snowfall which makes for a "mashed potato" mess which I don't enjoy. It is grey, overcast, and should make me feel like cleaning, right? But instead, here I am at the computer. I must say I did set the oven to clean itself so that should count for something, right? LOL!!
My scale is torturing me. I swear it is psychotic!! I can't trust the danged thing. It teased me with 208.8 then of course because I don't completely trust it I weighed again. 210.2. Must have done it 10 times!! LOL!!! 210.2 210.2 210.2 210.2. I could not get it to give me that sweet number of 208.8 again!! Maybe it is just giving me a preview of what is to come if I stay on track? LOL. I have no idea. I recorded the 210.2 and said to my self, "Carol ... move on!!!"
Work was very busy yesterday. Started at 7 am got home at 5:30ish. I did have one cancellation which was nice because I was able to dash to the market and pick up a few things we needed, freeing me up to go straight home after my last visit. They had some beautiful shrimp on sale for $8.99 a lb. I splurged and bought 2 lbs!! Planning on a nice dinner tonight or tomorrow night, whichever suits DH. I'm making him clean and cook the shrimp ... I found them he has to cook them!! I LOVE shrimp.
I've nothing of note on the horizon for this weekend. Just the normal weekend chores and of course time with DH. We have several Netflix DVDs here so I'm sure we'll be watching them. Everyone talks about Grey's Anatomy which I have never watched. Well last night I watched the very first episode on Netflix streaming. I worry about watching movies on my iPad, concerned I'll eat up all the bandwidth but decided to splurge. I enjoyed it. It's not a show my DH would enjoy ... he doesn't like anything "medical." So he detests Bones, House, anything with dead bodies or sick bodies. Of course he can watch war movies, people getting shot or blown up till the cows come home!!! To each their own I suppose. I have a few more months of being home alone 4 nights a week so perhaps Grey's Anatomy can fill some of my down time.
I think I may be unrealistic about 199 by February 14th. That's 11 lbs and only 3 weeks. Sure would be nice ... we shall see.
And so, as I sit here, gazing out my window at the trees, still with a bit on snow on them, the grey sky, and the white ground I am pondering ... what shall I comment about what I am grateful for today?
Grateful for my work. What a privilege it is to work with families who have concerns about their little ones. I had a final visit yesterday with a family I've worked with since the 3 year old was just a couple months old. The little guy is doing GREAT!!! He's language is incredibly complex, he is a pistol, oh how I will miss him, his sister and brothers and his wonderful grandparents. This same day I met a new family who suffered horrible losses just before Christmas and are concerned about the impact on their granddaughter. How blessed I am to be invited into these homes, to be a small part of their lives ... to hopefully make a positive impact.
I AM grateful for the body God gave me. I've spent so many years NOT liking myself, inside and out. And yet, this is what HE created, HE made possible. All of my limbs work. Though my mind isn't as sharp as it once was (oh how I love being older) it does work quite well. I have a heart that can feel for others. I care. I am tall and can reach the top shelves easily. I am strong. I am grateful.
I AM grateful for the parents God gave me. They started young, 17 and 19. They had tough times. I had tough times with my Dad. Yet out of those tough times I learned so much and I did love him (he has been gone more than 20 years now ... brain cancer). My parents stuck it out through the hard times and I know they loved each other. That example set for me has helped me stick through the tough times. I'm grateful to have perspective ... to know that they truly did the very best they could with what they knew. And I am ever so blessed to have had my mom with us ... and one of my best friends. I hear so many talk disparagingly about their moms ... that they have very difficult relationships ... for whatever reason God saw fit to give me the cream of the crop!!! I AM grateful.
I AM grateful for my circumstances. While I struggle with "contentment" (I think many do) I can see what blessings I have in my life. The difficulties don't have to be the focus. Yes ... I may lose my DH sooner than I had hoped but TODAY he is here with me. TODAY he is upstairs sleeping in our bed and he is alive. Yesterday is gone, whatever mistakes I have made I can't rewind and redo. Tomorrow is uncertain and it will be whatever it will be. TODAY is real. I am grateful for today.
Long grateful list, eh? LOL!!! That's what happens when I have some alone time, up too early, cup of coffee in me and nothing "pressing" that is hurrying me a long. Today is another opportunity for me to practice being kind to myself, to practice taking care of me, to practice being mindful of my life. Have a great weekend ... time to refill that coffee cup!!! Take care my dear friends.
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210.2 lb
Lost so far: 49.0 lb.
Still to go: 25.2 lb.
Diet followed reasonably well.
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losing 4.2 lb a week
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