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WARNING:
IRATE RANT AND EXPLICIT LANGUAGE Forgive me for not blogging much lately on here, I haven't had much to say. I haven't had much going on; have hit a MAJOR plateau. My weight fluctuates between 182 and 188. Can't seem to get below 182. I am pissed off at the world today. Two incidents involving my weight have been brought to my attention in just the past 24 hours. FIRST INCIDENT: Yesterday, I was at work and this older man who comes in regularly and is known for pissing people off made a smart-ass comment to me. At work we have a dog who is so so so hyper that I will take a golf cart in the mornings and drive around and he will run and chase me, so I get him to run off a lot of his energy. This "gentleman" said to me and everyone else in the pro shop "Sarah needs to let the dog on the cart and let him drive around and her run around"...pissed me off SO DAMN BAD! UGH!!! That is NOT something you say to someone who has worked their ASS off to lose 120 pounds in just a little over a year. And he KNOWS where I was a year ago. I said to him "Mr. Ray, it really saddens me when a man as old as yourself doesn't know right from wrong" and just walked out. I had to be polite, but what I wanted to say was "FUCK YOU, BUDDY. GO TO HELL!"...yeah a little strong I know. But what right does he have to sit there and try to bring me down when I finally feel a little good about myself?? SECOND INCIDENT: Not nearly as bad, just pissed me off because I'm still upset about yesterday. This morning another older gentleman just came in and asked me if I am still on my diet. I said "yes but after losing 120 pounds I'm not losing as quickly as I used to"..he went on to tell me I need to exercise. I told him I do exercise. He just continued telling me what I NEED to do! MISTER! IVE LOST 120 POUNDS! I KNOW WHAT I NEED TO DO! I KNOW HOW TO LOSE WEIGHT! I DO NOT NEED YOU (Who probably has never had a weight problem in his entire life) TO TELL ME WHAT I NEEEEEED TO DO! MIND YOUR OWN DAMN BUSINESS! The thing is, I am still working hard to lose weight, but I have been fat my entire life. I am skinnier now than I have EVER been in my life. I am only 30 pounds over-weight now!! ISNT THAT FUCKING AMAZING?! WHY CANT PEOPLE JUST LET ME BE HAPPY AND DO WHAT I KNOW I NEED TO DO I will get to my goal weight eventually, but is it really a race? My body can only lose as fast as it wants to...I just makes me so mad. It hurts my feelings, why should my feelings be hurt when I've accomplished SO MUCH already... Another small incident that was MEANT to not be bad but still hurt my feelings because I'm already so sensitive to it. Last night I was talking to my boyfriend about the first incident I mentioned. I stated "I'm fat" ...my boyfriend then said "you are not fat!" I then being a girl tricked him into a lose/lose statement by saying "Well I am probably the biggest girl you've been with" and he said "...well you're still not fat" dot..dot..dot... HE SHOULDNT HAVE SAID THAT! I wasnt mad at him but my feelings were again hurt. I know he was just being honest, I AM THE BIGGEST...but he should have lied and said "no baby i was with this WHALE of a bitch before you" or something like that... Anyway. I am just going to keep on doing what I am doing...and if that doesnt start working soon I'll just become an anorexic
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184.0 lb
Lost so far: 51.0 lb.
Still to go: 34.0 lb.
Diet followed reasonably well.
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gaining 0.7 lb a week
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Wow! I hate rude people. You're right; by now he should know better than to make comments like that. That just means he's ignorant and you're better than him. Don't get discouraged by what people say, use it as motivation. 120 lbs is such an AMAZING accomplishment. Ignore these retards and keep up the good work!
06 Sep 12 by member: sjojos89
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120 lbs is amazing, Sarah. And I see you're no longer blonde. Keep up the good work (and the sense of humour) and you'll have something to show everyone.
06 Sep 12 by member: Helewis
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Lol Helewis I never was blonde, I think you're mistaken me with another blogger on here who has been gone for a while
06 Sep 12 by member: sarah_cook2007
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You're absolutely right, Sarah. Now I remember when you did that cute bob in your photo. Please forgive me for being confused. Hope your day has gone a little better. That weight will come off. Don't you worry. You keep doing what you're doing.
06 Sep 12 by member: Helewis
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Gurl... it's guys like that who need to be "accidentally" tripped on their way out the store. When it comes to the topic of women losing weight and improving their health, men need to take a damn seat.
06 Sep 12 by member: lemonella
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People are stupid. And rude. Don't let either of them get you down. You have accomplished an amazing feat already and you will reach your goal! Keep it up girlie!
06 Sep 12 by member: Baileyrose85
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I hit plateaus too. Don't give up and just keep up what your doing. One day you you will plunge thru. I have lost 55 lbs. since June 15th and seemed to have hit one too. But a cheat day once in a while helps fire the metabolism back up. Good luck
06 Sep 12 by member: Jrtracer
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Aww, Sarah - don't let a$$holes get inside your head. I agree, you deserve respect. And I think the way you handled Mr. Ray in incident #1 was perfect! You are an amazing person who has the dedication to do anything you desire! DO NOT let these people get to you. If you never lose another pound - you are still a beautiful, wonderful and much loved woman!
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I cannot believe people! Honey, you are gorgeous and you lost 120 pounds?!?! That's AWESOME AS HELL! I can't wait to say the same thing lol YOU ROCK! Only listen to the people who care about because the rest of the world doesn't matter. You know what you are doing. I also hate it when people tell you what you should be doing. Ugh, I hate that with a passion. You made major headway, and they should KNOW that you KNOW what you are doing. You go, girl!
06 Sep 12 by member: Shelly25
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Wow, I think you look awesome and what an accomplishment!!! I checked out some of your pics and you look amazing. What you have accomplished so far is inspirational to others and you will make it to your goals in spite of everyone else. Keep up the great work. :)
06 Sep 12 by member: kimjinxie
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the problem with these people is, that they usually have a problem with themselves and are frustrated because of many reasons. and then they see someone who they can say something...is it because something tiny little thing or even something other. because they need someone to yell to and get the attention away from them. you have done an awesome job in the last year and even if you hit a plateau, you will definitely loose weight again. you ahd changes in your life and your body and your mind first need to focus :) you go girl!
07 Sep 12 by member: joelae
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I've watched your progress for a long time now and I can see that you are a different person than the one I was following at the beginning of the year. You have self esteem, direction and confidence that was a little shaky before. Use that new found courage and strength to block stupid comments out. Don't let the old girl come back by letting people get in your head but let the confident young woman shine! You're an inspiration. Even to a old guy like me. Just remember there's no pill for stupid or you wouldn't have to put up with Jackwagon #1.
07 Sep 12 by member: protractorboy
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Sarah. 1. Hi!! I miss your journals! I’ve been down on the journal count too!! Anywho 2. Be as mad and annoyed and irritated as you want to be. People are fucking annoying, plain and simple. It makes me realize that no matter how much you lose people will still have shit to say… BUT after your done hating the world for a day or so remember everything you just said. You busted your ass to get as far as you have, your body will only lose as fast as it can and you do know what to do. People will always talk no matter what; sometimes I find that the boost in your personal confidence for your achievements makes people uncomfortable with themselves and they have a need to say something to make themselves feel like they are on top… You’re absolutely incredible for all the work you’ve put in and beautiful on the inside and out to boot! As for your bf situation, that was a lose lose thing to say and I feel like all the ladies here, myself included, have done it. I am always the biggest girl a guy has dated and after being single for so long I know that those questions are best left unasked, next person I’m with will be with me cause he loves ALL of me no matter what my size. Know that your bf is with you because he loves ALL of you!! As for the anorexic comment, you’re just annoyed lol food is too good and too helpful for fat loss lol did I mention good!!
07 Sep 12 by member: orchidannie
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Yep, people are idiots - you are AMAZING and have come so far!! Ignore the haters! :)
08 Sep 12 by member: erika2633
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From your previous entries, it sounds like you have a wonderful, supportive boyfriend. Be thankful for his honesty. When he compliments you, you'll know he really means it. As for the rest, don't give up your power. By giving into anger, you've given someone else the power to control you. Look at what you've accomplished. You are definitely in control of your life, and not someone else.
10 Sep 12 by member: jenkie5
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Wow Sarah! I think you handled yourself with grace in both those incidents! I would be furious too! As Erika said - Ignore the haters! One thing, 30 lbs over weight is not "fat". It’s more “slightly over weight”. You have come a long way - learn to take a compliment - when your BF says "you're not fat", the proper response is "Thank you". Please repeat as situations demand! LOL I think what you have accomplished is amazing - don't let anyone (including yourself) diminish that!
10 Sep 12 by member: jessabridge4444
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A little different perspective, for what it may be worth...possibly nothing, lol. My DH has taught me that men just can't win when it comes to women and our (often ridiculous) desire for reassurance about our looks, our bodies, brains, sexiness, or whatever! No matter what they answer to the question "does this outfit make me look fat?" or, "how do you like my hairstyle?" it's almost always the wrong thing to say...it really makes them feel very uncomfortable and insecure to try to answer these kinds of questions. I am most blessed among women to have a DH who tells me on his own that he thinks I'm beautiful and smart, and that he's not in love with my hair or my clothes...he's in love with ME. Thus, I have the freedom to be myself, and I try not to ever put him on the spot for a compliment, because I want him to feel "free" also. Oddly enough, all this has had the effect of giving me MORE self-confidence, and self-esteem, not less. Your weight loss is nothing short of amazing, and you know this...hold your head up. If YOU know you're fine, nobody else matters.
10 Sep 12 by member: Baxie
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Yes, there are better ways of saying things and I am not saying they are right or wrong. But, remember for man #2 he was just being a man, he was trying to fix the problem to make you happy. Us men want to fix things or give advise, we just can't help it, just like you can't help asking questions that there is no right answer for. I know your venting and don't want any advise, so don't read...... LOL Kind of late for that.....
10 Sep 12 by member: Soulnoid
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120 pounds WOW an AMAZING achievement... You must be so proud of yourself :-). You are right about weight loss slowing down.... You couldn't possibly loose at the same rate you initially were.... None of us could do that.... What rude ignorant people, you have come into contact with recently. Don't let them upset you.... You have take your life in hand and made it better... Well done
10 Sep 12 by member: Sk1nnyfuture
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I think the clue is in "two older men" - they know they haven't got a chance in hell in getting such a cute, young girl in their lives...so have to make you feel bad to make themselves feel better. Go you for politely telling him to Fuck off!!!
10 Sep 12 by member: triaby
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