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I realize that I am making progress, though by no means have I achieved success just yet. I've been really good with limiting the simple carbs. I even surprised myself by not cheating on Saturday at a birthday party that offered cupcakes, really good looking brownies, and a delicious looking fruit salad as well as wraps and sandwiches. (I ended up having the innards of a wrap and two sandwich halves.) So yay me on that front!
However, in keeping a balanced perspective I notice I am getting a little too loose with the food tracking and calorie counting. I have also grazed on cheese, nuts and chicken sausages when I wasn't really hungry.
I've found it interesting that though I hear people on ketosis diets tend to have carb cravings, I haven't. I have no physical or visceral pull to the foods that I loved eating. I miss them because I remember how I enjoyed the taste, but I know that I don't need to eat them. It's harder when I see fruit cut up because I feel like if I don't eat it, and my daughter decides she no longer wants it, that it will go to waste and the thought of wasting food really bothers me. I've sort of learned that it isn't a dilemma between the trash can or my stomach, that I can actually put it away in the fridge for my daughter to eat later, but the compulsion to finish food off for her is really strong. I need to break that.
I haven't been able to track my food this weekend, but I will start afresh tomorrow. I hope that I haven't put on some of the weight I've just lost through my carelessness. Also, I am not drinking enough water. I don't get why this is such a challenge to me. I don't know what exactly is keeping me from getting a glass out of the cupboard, filling it from the water spigot, draining it and refilling it throughout the day. Perhaps it boggles me that I can be that lazy, yet it doesn't seem to bother me enough to change yet. Not all that long ago I was in that same predicament with my weight in general. I didn't like how I looked, and that I was steadily gaining weight. However, my efforts to change weren't disciplined enough and I was too comfortable with my own self repulsion that I wasn't willing to try harder to effect change. It wasn't until I started having small successes that I began to care again. Once that happened I actually began to strive towards my goal, and so far I am about a quarter of the way there. I guess it's just little by little that these things begin to click. Perhaps in the not to distant future I'll start getting these are pieces of the pie in order.
Diet Calendar Entry for 15 April 2012:
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908 kcal
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Fat: 64.34g | Prot: 66.80g | Carb: 19.88g.
Breakfast: summer sausage, kraft parmesan, sargento string cheese, heavy whipping cream, coffee, almonds, avocado, Deli Cuts Smoked Turkey Breast & White Turkey, fried eggs, caprese sausage. more...
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