Start Weight:(20 Jul 13) 172.0 lb
Current Weight:(15 Apr 14) 141.5 lb
Goal Weight:140.0 lb
following: Calorie Count
performance: losing 3.5 lb a week

I'm happily married for going on 8 years, Mom to two sweet little girls (ages 5 & 0), and a former foster kid. I aged out of the system, but was a ward of the state of Maryland from age 15 to 21. I have a history of clinical depression and psychiatric hospitalizations. That's a large part of why I spent the majority of my adolescence in foster care.

My mom suffers from a debilitating mental illness that has triggered for me many body image/ psychological issues. My mom's condition is untreated schizophrenia that was initially diagnosed when I was 14. Food has often been a faulty coping mechanism. I don't think I've ever weighed over 200lbs; however, I don't yet have a healthy relationship with food, I'm not as healthy as I can be, and I've mostly been dissatisfied with my weight. Since my high school freshman year, I've weighed no less than 130lb, averaging 150lb or more for the majority of my late teen/adult life. For my frame and height, an ideal weight/ body composition would be around 130lb/ 17% body fat. That is my ultimate fitness goal.

My youth was troubled; however, I see my life now as full of promise and hope. My faith is a central part of that perspective change and an integral part of who I am now. I've been a believer for almost 8 years now. I know G-d has not only redeemed my painful childhood, but given me a unique opportunity to encourage others through my testimony. Furthermore, G-d has abundantly blessed me with the family I now have.

At one time I was in so much pain, without hope, and was seriously planning to kill myself on what would have been my 22nd birthday because I saw no end to the misery in sight. G-d radically changed my life that year in ways I could not even have imagined. Now I am looking forward to turning 30. I am motivated to gain a new level of health that I've never had before, and I enjoy my life.

(Ephesians 3:14-21) :)

FatSecret member since: 10 Jun 10

MrsTofu's Weight History

MrsTofu's Latest Member Challenges

  come & weigh...come what may!
status: Completed
ended: 12 Dec 11
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  200 Sit-Ups
status: Completed
ended: 07 Nov 11
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last weighin: gaining 2.3 lb a week Up
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MrsTofu's Cookbook

cals: 341kcal | fat: 15.62g | carbs: 22.88g | prot: 28.20g
This chili dish is sure to be a family favorite.
cals: 169kcal | fat: 5.77g | carbs: 0.82g | prot: 26.68g
Parmesan Crusted Chicken Tenders
Sensational low carb chicken dish.
cals: 132kcal | fat: 5.50g | carbs: 19.35g | prot: 2.13g
Strawberry Cream Cheese Cupcakes
Berries and cream cheese provide the wow in simply delicious cupcakes.
cals: 90kcal | fat: 2.20g | carbs: 17.29g | prot: 3.33g
French Ratatouille
An incredibly hearty low-calorie vegetable stew that's great alone, on whole wheat pasta or folded into an omelet.
cals: 294kcal | fat: 19.17g | carbs: 29.93g | prot: 5.24g
No Flour Chocolate Cake
A gluten free and very chocolatey, decadent cake.
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CSA challenge: Celery
I hate it raw on its own since the texture/ stringiness is really off putting for me (I love cream cheese and peanut butter, but even then it's hard for me to eat it unless I am practically using the celery as a means to eat the other stuff almost straight, which I try to avoid doing usually because I know that's counterproductive for weight management). However, chopped finely and mixed with some kind of salad (tuna, chicken, potato, etc.) or sauteed it doesn't bother me at all. Granted I don't think I'm really getting the benefits from it when I'm using it as an ingredient in pot pie or stuffing. Razz At that point I think it's more about adding flavor to braises or stews than nutrition. Maybe adding it to a stir fry would serve your purposes better?
posted 19 Mar 2014, 07:32
Truth be told
posted 14 Mar 2014, 07:31
Unkind remarks
meskinnyagain wrote:
My weight journey has not been easy, and when I happened to mention to what I considered a "friend" that I feel as if I had lost weight because my clothes feel looser, her remark was "Your just not putting your pants in the dryer anymore" and then she laughed. I played it off but the whole time I was thinking, how rude and unkind. People and their thoughtless remarks...unbelievable!!

What you say is true...people can be really cruel and thoughtless.

HOWEVER, in your position I would suggest first asking her what she meant by her statement. She may be jealous and may not have been trying to be nice, though perhaps she didn't realize how deeply she hurt you and done more damage than intended.

She may not deserve it, but I think it's worthwhile for your sake to offer her the benefit of the doubt. (I remember saying some really dumb, messed up things without thinking that really offended people I cared about.)

It can suck that once something is said, you can't really take it back. But, if you aren't being completely self serving (you as in the general you, not specific to OP or anyone here per se), it can be valuable to both parties to have the opportunity to atone and reconcile.

If she still is out to be toxic, then shake off the dust of your sandals and move on. Don't try to repay her with contempt and other unkindness. That is the tactic of small people- people who stand to have very unfulfilling, miserable lives because they've chosen to forsake opportunities to grow as individuals, so their compassion and awareness doesn't extend much beyond themselves. They probably don't even like themselves because they know what they choose isn't good, but are unwilling to put forth the effort to have what would be good. Whether she is willing to acknowledge your progress, the more important thing is that you see it. Congrats on what you've done so far! Smile
posted 12 Mar 2014, 18:02
Dieting – Is It The Right Thing To Do
wholefoodnut wrote:
Mrs tofu, I agree that's why I put on a diet in quotes.

Sad Yeah. I sort of wish I knew if/ how it would be possible to hijack the word back to its neutral meaning instead of just letting the people who want to distort or negatively connote the word for their own foolish uses and run with it. *whine, whine, grumble, grumble, moan* Sad
posted 09 Mar 2014, 20:42
20 lbs in 3 weeks
marissawillbeskinny wrote:
... my sister has been doing it for a month and has lost 18 pounds. It really does work.

And here is an example of borderline reckless behavior.

Could this work? Well, that depends on is your goal a number or a way of life? He explicitly states this is a 3 week program to jump start results. Atkins and South Beath seem similar in the focus on explicitly short term, drastically reduced/ restricted eating to jump start progress before transitioning into a less restrictive, life maintenance WOE.

I get his explanation of carbs, but I thought it was backwards from what I had heard previously. I thought simple carbs were the more processed grains and higher starch veggies and complex ones were what he called the freebies- higher water and fiber content stuff like greens. In any case, I get it. Low carb, low fat, low cal for 3 weeks to lose a lot of weight. Technically it may "work"- I cannot confirm or deny that- but it seems poorly motivated and reckless to me. The mentality seems like do whatever it takes to look successful. Sprint to the check point then switch to this other plan. That doesn't seem healthy IMO. Sad
posted 09 Mar 2014, 19:32
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