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This is really frustrating right now. I can tell I am watching the clock, waiting for an acceptable time to eat lunch because I want to eat now. I don't know if I am hungry or not, but I want to eat nonetheless. I'm a SAHM, so I am home basically all day. I cook for my family, so as long as I am not too lazy I can take raw ingredients and 'make food' out of them. I am surrounded by food which I know that I shouldn't eat. I struggle about what I should eat so that I don't overshoot my RDI. That number feels like a prison, and I still feel trapped by it regardless of DH telling me how he overcame the feeling of oppression by hunger to it being a feeling of victory. (It means the body resorts to burning fat stores for energy as long as it's done prudently. Starving just slows the metabolism, causes muscles to atrophy and lends the body to breaking them down also for energy.)
As I lament my nutrition woes I am reminded of verses that my behavior is denying/ rebelling from. (Particularly Matthew 6:25-33 and Phillipians 4:6-9). I am doing it all WRONG. This bugs me. I want to do right. I want to eat healthfully without fretting or being pushed around by my emotions. I want to practice the principles I know the Bible teaches and has proven to be true and reliable; I'm stumbling- a LOT- especially with the teachings about not letting emotions rule and taking thoughts into captivity. I think G-d is trying to help teach me something and I am being super dense, but at least I have the comfort in knowing that He is pleased with me enough to discipline me. (Proverbs 3:12- For whom the L-rd loves, He corrects, just as a father the son in whom he delights. NKJV)
Diet Calendar Entries for 07 March 2011:
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1720 kcal
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Fat: 37.91g | Prot: 119.72g | Carb: 220.15g.
Breakfast: Yam-banana-sweet potato custard, caprese chicken sausage, banana, Steel Cut Irish Oatmeal, egg whites, red delicious apple. Lunch: Total 2% Greek Srained Yogurt, Palak Paneer, trader joes harvest grains blend, hillshire farms deli select. Dinner: rosemary sweet potato biscuits, Normandy style veggies, Pesto turkey loaf with salsified mango chutney. Snacks/Other: Cooked Egg White, Original Healthy Multi-Grain Bread, better n peanut butter, kiwi. more...
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1967 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Housework - 4 hours, Resting - 16 hours, Sleeping - 4 hours. more...
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