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On the weight loss/ nutrition front, I feel I've been slacking a little and slipping with eating habits (particularly in the evening, and especially when I am making lunches for my husband and daughter for the following day). My weight is about the same. I weighed myself twice in the same day recently (I don't remember when exactly, or I'd record it here. I may just wait til tomorrow and weigh in then since that will be an even two weeks). The first time was in the morning just to get a sense of where I was, and the other time was more to have an idea of how much my baby weighs. Our bathroom scale can't detect weight much below 40lb, so my older daughter can just barely register on the scale. :P Little Bit (That's one of the nicknames I've given DD#2) is about 14lbs, but it's really hard to gauge because I can't tell when the scale really has our full weight or not. What was weird/ unexpected for me was that the earlier reading was about 3lb heavier than the evening weigh in. (~150 vs ~147lb, I would have thought it would have been the opposite where I would have been "heavier" in the evening.) I guess this means I am maintaining, which isn't too bad. For not really doing anything special still I can't complain. Also, I didn't really have a timeline planned for this last leg of the drop before I settle on ongoing maintenance.
I'm not discouraged. I don't think I'm depressed right now, though sometimes I have times during the day when I feel sad. It's mostly situational, like when DH is asleep before I get to bed and I want to hang out/ feel lonely or isolated. I used to stay up consistently late reading my newsfeed on FB, getting a superficial sense of connection, but it was wreaking havoc on my sleep (or lack therof). I decided to take a break from FB. I am trying to remember to tell my friends outside of FB because I don't want to bring attention to it and I don't want to log in right now. It's not that it's bad, but like my relationship with food I was distorting it in an unhealthy way. What actually prompted my decision was remembering part of a verse from Torah, maybe Exodus or Deuteronomy, I don't remember exactly. The verse was G-d saying how He ALLOWED the Israelites to become hungry SO THAT they would learn to depend on Him and see that their sustenance/ fulfillment came from G-d. That really struck a chord for me and made me realize that I needed to allow myself to withdraw from that social media (FS usually isn't a snare for me like FB is, so I've only decided to have a hiatus from FB, though I don't know how long it may be. ) SO THAT I might develop more of a habit and inclination to seek G-d and the relationships that he's placed in my life to more fully satisfy that need instead of turning to something inherently more superficial. It's a bit disturbing to me how even starting out my thoughts drift back there a lot because I had been in the habit of interacting online there. I didn't realize how prevalent my involvement was until I chose to stop/ take a break. :-/
This seems like it's been a good decision. I find I am being more productive and I feel healthier mentally, not sure if that's placebo but it's encouraging. I am also happy that my dinner planning, lunch making the night before and running the dishwasher/cleaning the kitchen before going to bed habits seem to be holding so far. :) So, life is good. :)
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