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This weight gain all began several months ago with a major injury to my left ankle. I was on crutches for weeks, in a walking boot for two months, in a brace for four months after that, and unable to walk more than the requisite amount for work (and only that much with a great deal of pain, but what are you going to do). I used to be a fairly avid jogger who walked everywhere. Becoming suddenly sedentary did something strange to my brain. I have been struggling with depression, anxiety and insomnia. And with that, weight gain. Like, more than twenty pounds, pretty rapidly. Where I used to exercise, or just plain commute, now I sit at home, cooking (an activity I really enjoy), drinking too much, and eating.
Slowly, after months of physical therapy, my ankle is coming around. I'm able to sustain some activity--I've even purchased a gym membership, and have been riding the bike and doing some short bursts on the elliptical trainer. But my motivation also comes in short bursts. Most of the time I feel so uncomfortable in my body, so unrecognizable to my own self that I can't muster the courage to leave the house and my yummy foodie relationship and my sweet chubby boyfriend who loves even fat me--that I just don't.
The thing is, I know what I need to do. I need to get on this site every day and log every bit of food I eat, even when I'm embarrassed about my impulse control, etc. I need to quit drinking, or at least cut way, way back. I need to get to the gym every day. I need my sweet chubby boyfriend to get on a program with me and cheer me on instead of feeling bewildered by my unhappiness with myself. I need a community of supporters! I need, need, need to do this for myself, or I'm just...afraid of what my life will turn into.
Diet Calendar Entries for 04 February 2014:
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1794 kcal
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Fat: 59.60g | Prot: 34.98g | Carb: 188.89g.
Breakfast: Peanut Butter, Fuji Apples, Coffee. Lunch: Olive Oil, Cooked Spaghetti Squash (Fat Not Added in Cooking). Dinner: Feta Cheese, Trader Joe's Organic Low Sodium Vegetable Broth, Red Tomatoes (Canned), Onions, Celery, Carrots, Cooked Lentils, Greens. Snacks/Other: Red Table Wine, Whole Foods Market Greek Orzo Salad. more...
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2048 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Exercise machine (slow) - 5 minutes, Resting - 15 hours and 55 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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