Lizzie983's Journal, 01 August 2013

So, I am back to Germany. Still not focusing 100% on work, but at least trying hard.
I am in a bad mood. Somehow sad, unhappy, and relieved my uncle has been found (dead, but better knowing it soon rather than never or in a few months/years).
My family is making even more pressure on me, cause they want me to come back to Italy. The point is, I love my life in Germany: my job, my partner, my friends, my way of living here. In Italy I cannot be as happy as I am here and now with my life. So, this makes me nervous.
Since a few weeks I started beign heavily agressive again. I have some random moments when I become angry, and I put it to the closest person. Yesterday I made a girl selling bus tickets at the airport cry, I have really been nastywith her. The point is, I realized it only when it was over since a few hours. And did the same yesterday with my father yesterdaymorning before leaving. I hate this behavior of mine. I want to learn how to control it and get rid of it. I just don't see it coming, but realise it only afterwards.
I am confident I can make it, as I did with the overeating episodes. It will taketimeand effort, I will get over it.
After all the stress and food in Italy I feel very heavy and bloated. I gained 2 kilos (about 4+ pounds). I am aware my scale introduces a systematic error of +2kilos on every measurement. I double checked with other 3 scales (swimming pool and friends' ones). Anyway, this two kilos I got on arereal. I want to get rid of them and the bad emotions by going running and/or rollerblading every day for 30minutes, till the weather is good enough.

I have to still work a bit.
Have a good time, fatsecreters.

---

1945 kcal

Fat: 76.20g | Prot: 100.70g | Carb: 214.61g.   Breakfast: Cappuccino, Croissant. Lunch: Riso Bianco, Petto di Pollo (senza Pelle). Dinner: Barbabietole, Scamorza, Focaccia. Snacks/Other: Torta al Cioccolato (con Glassa di Cioccolato). more...

2176 kcal

Activities & Exercise: Walking (slow) - 2/mph - 40 minutes, Resting - 2 hours and 20 minutes, Sleeping - 7 hours, Desk Work - 11 hours, Housework - 3 hours. more...