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Sometimes a good blowout, no holds barred, screaming match is what's in order... & just what the doctor ordered! Yes, DH & I had it out yesterday, & it felt sooooo good & I feel sooooo much better. We, again, had gotten into a discussion about the family reunion & his sister and her family coming the week before to CT. He lost it first which spurred me to lose it too, which almost never happens, so I think we were both surprised. But, I felt so much better! I screamed & shouted exactly what I was feeling, and it wasn't in my usual, careful to say it correctly, using how I'm feeling & not blaming terms, etc. And while I wouldn't advocate this, it was what was needed & had built up to, at the time. Luckily, in hindsight, just after I got it all off my chest, my son called from the train station that he'd forgotten his wallet so didn't have his train ticket or any money to buy one, so I jumped in the car to save him & deliver the wallet. Already, I felt so much better, but when I returned home, DH apologized, acknowledged he'd bitten off more than he could chew & tried to insist he'd do it all. We, then came to a compromise, a plan to divide & conquer, he agreed that his sister & her family will stay at our lake cottage, & all is good again.
So today as I begin in prayer, I am grateful to have worked it out & feel much more serene already --
God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
Amen.
And, through this one day and each one meal, moment, bite & emotion at a time, I'll continue to pray, breathe, post & express my way through. xoxoxo
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