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I did not sleep very well last night. Colitis kicked in, I was to warm, I was too cold, E was snoring, dog was licking. My first thought..."I gotta exercise when I am this tired! Rats!" But now....I feel like the world is my oyster....I am BACK, BABY!!!! Let the losing (weight) begin! June 22 is a friend's wedding. And since I always do better with goals....Sexy Red Dress here I come! I think I will take a pic of it tonight and make it my default picture so I have extra motivation. :-) Not gonna record my weight just yet...but Monday...I will, no matter what.
In personal news, I am doing better not being bitter about the kid situation. So now, I am trying to learn to let go. Nothing I do will change how she treats us, or how her mom treats us. I spent part of my birthday crying because she would not make the time to see us/me. For the last three years, my joyful bday celebrations have been lacking. It is not the same w/o your kid "wanting" to be there. Enough is enough...I must embrace my lowly parental status. E is left out too. It is not just my pain. I have to be my happy self, because a sad Jessa EATS A LOT!!!! LOL
So I am working on: no more resentment, showing my love w/o asking for more then she is willing to give, being me w/o doing a kindness count in my head, focusing on the good stuff as much as possible. She loves us as she needs right now, and one day she might love us as we need. Today is not that day, but that day will hopefully come. See, now I have something to look forward too. :-)
Diet Calendar Entries for 09 January 2013:
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1203 kcal
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Fat: 41.25g | Prot: 63.50g | Carb: 152.00g.
Breakfast: Chocolate Caramel protein meal bar. Lunch: Meal on the Go Bar - Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough. Dinner: Italian Creamy Garlic, Broccoli Cuts, Country Crock Original, Barber Foods Broccoli & Cheese Chicken. Snacks/Other: Diet Coke, Coke Zero. more...
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2709 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Yard Work (gardening) - 25 minutes, Resting - 7 hours and 19 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours, Desk Work - 7 hours and 30 minutes, Driving - 46 minutes. more...
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