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Ooops, I did it again...
Had a full package of cookies last night.
It was my grandma's birthday and I phoned her. She's living in a beautiful village on the mountains, in Italy.
So, we have been talking the whole time about (the death of) my mother, my divorce, our health conditions, my father feeling alone since I am living far away.
And I compensated for all those emotions by eating a full box of Xmas German cookies. It's not about the calories, it's about health. I spent all night visiting my dear friend, the toilet, having cramps in my guts, feeling sick,having diarrhea.
Since three weeks I am on a "sugar and wheat free" diet and I have been feeling so much better than the past 3 years. Much better than when I have been on gluten free diet. So eating wheat cookies was such a bad idea. I feel so stupid.
I don't like talking to my family, every time they make me feel guilty for who I am and for not being what they want me to be. That's horrible. They are not able to respect me as a human being and I tried all I could. And every time this affects me so badly that I eat all the fridge content in a few minutes.
I want to stop that!!!!
Diet Calendar Entry for 07 October 2012:
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2278 kcal
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Fat: 123.29g | Prot: 141.13g | Carb: 155.08g.
Breakfast: Pane di Segale, Pancetta (Curata, in Padella, Cotta), Uovo all'occhio di Bue. Lunch: Pane di Segale, Arrosto di Petto di Pollo alla Griglia o al Forno (senza Pelle). Dinner: Salsiccia di Maiale Fresca. Snacks/Other: Marmellate e Conserve (Pochi Zuccheri), Focaccia, Formaggio di Capra (Morbido), Prosciutto Crudo, Cioccolato Dolce o Amaro. more...
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