Ms Elizabeth's Journal, 17 August 2023

Working from home is soooo hard. The kitchen is right there. The little humans want food every 30 minutes so I keep walking into the kitchen. I don't have to take 200 steps to the bathroom so I'm sitting 95% of the time. I'm basically a sloth surrounded by food. I made the mistake of buying macadamia nuts yesterday and I want to eat the whole freakin bag. I might have to hide those from myself. Anyways.. With a challenging day only 50% done I think I need some really good whys for why I'm not going to crash and burn today.

Today's 3 whys:
1. Because I see the me I want to be. She's right there. I can picture her. She's not perfect. Could she be skinnier? Sure. But she's healthy and she's got some muscles. She's active. She's lighter in more ways than just weight. She's not in pain. She's happy with who she is.

2. Because I want to be strong. I live in my own house with my own things and my own responsibilities. I want to be strong enough to handle anything that life tosses at me. Last week it was a wet basement that I had to pull paneling out of. Not going to lie. I'm so out of shape it was hard. There were a few times I didn't think I would be able to pull something free on my own. BUT I did. I didn't need to be rescued. I want to have the peace of mine to know that yes I can carry that somewhat heavy crap without collapsing because it was just too hard for me. I want to carry my groceries in with only one trip!

3. I don't like the word obese. I don't want to be obese. The doctor lists me as obese. The scale tells me I'm obese. I don't want to be obese. It's not even a fun word to say. It sounds like a horrible word. If I didn't know what it was and I said it I wouldn't be like that's a fun word I want to say that more. Bodacious is a good word. Shenanigans is a fun word. Obese.. not fun. I will be happy to be in the Overweight category. When I am I'm going to make sure every doctor I have makes that change. I will go to doctors I haven't been to in years just to make sure they correct that on my chart. I might be a little nuts.

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1480 kcal

Fat: 102.07g | Prot: 91.23g | Carb: 53.68g.   Breakfast: Coffee, Premier Nutrition Premier Protein Cinnamon Roll. Lunch: Kirkland Signature Dry Roasted Macadamia Nuts with Sea Salt, Ken's Steak House Creamy Caesar Dressing, Perdue Grilled Chicken Breast Strips. Dinner: Trader Joe's Butter Lettuce, Aldi Classic Guacamole, Ground Beef (90% Lean / 10% Fat), Pickles, Mama Cozzi Sliced Pepperoni, Happy Farms Shredded Mozzarella Cheese. Snacks/Other: Wal-Mart Mini Cupcakes, Aldi Aged Reserve White Cheddar. more...