Ms Elizabeth's Journal, 15 August 2023

Last time I was successful at losing weight I would journal something called my 3 whys. I would write these down every morning in a notebook by my bed. The problem with this is I like to hit snooze. I like to hit snooze ALOT. So I don't always have time to write down my 3 whys. Sometimes I'm not coherent enough to form 3 whys. One time one of my whys was because I said so because it was a Monday and I was annoyed that Monday is even a day of the week and I didn't want to work but I'm an adult and I have to work. Sometimes I want to be a squirrel. I believe I will be a smart squirrel that doesn't try to kill myself in the middle of the road but maybe this is a fight club thing but for squirrels. I would totally join a squirrel fight club if I was a squirrel. Anyways.. I'm going to switch to recording my 3 whys here in hopes it makes me take the time to journal as well. Plus I cannot accidently give this notebook to a new hire. I may or may not have accidently given my other journal to a new hire because I didn't have time to write 3 whys so I took the dang thing to work. After 6 months we can finally make eye contact again.

Today's 3 whys:

1. Because my achilles tendon is all angry again. They say it's because the muscles in my calf are too tight but the added weight is not helping matters. I'd like to wake up in the morning and not hobble/wobble/curse under my breath. It starts the day off on a less than happy foot.

2. Because I want boobs that looks more impressive than my muffin top. I used to have what I considered an impressive chest/boobies. But now that the muffin top is larger than the boobs I've realized that in comparison the boobs just looks lacking. It's like standing next to Jessica Rabbit. Jessica needs to go. Jessica is giving my boobs a complex. I think I just named my muffin top Jessica.

3. Because I want more confidence. I remember having more confidence. I was confident I wouldn't break something if I sat or jumped on it. I haven't broken anything but I now have a fear I could. I want confidence to walk into a room and not worry I might take someone out with a hip. I want confidence to wear cute adorable clothes that don't look like a tent. I want confidence to buy clothes and not second guess myself because what if this is the time I lose weight?

Soo many whys... Now I just have to use those to convince myself that hating Jessica is more important than wanting to motorboat dessert.

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1208 kcal

Fat: 75.82g | Prot: 116.88g | Carb: 17.74g.   Breakfast: Aldi Breakfast Original Sausage Links, Premier Nutrition High Protein Shake - Caramel, Coffee. Lunch: Cracker Barrel Extra Sharp White Cheddar Cheese, McDonald's Spicy Buffalo Sauce, Zucchini, Perdue Grilled Chicken Breast Strips. Dinner: Kraft Mexican Style Taco Cheese, Ground Beef (90% Lean / 10% Fat) , Aldi Classic Guacamole, Trader Joe's Butter Lettuce. more...