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Sunday :-) Okkkkkkk, down again! I like this :-) it kind of makes up for the close to 4 weeks with no loss! Tomorrow it will be 5 week on my Plan and it has been difficult but I can continue doing this. I have to stay true to me and I feel good so why would I abandon what helps me feel good, what fuels my body, what helps me mentally & physically? For just a taste of something that is not going to stay with me EXCEPT in extra poundage, extra fat, extra body girth, extra 'not so good stuff' going into my body? NOPE!
I must mention though last night I was very, very tempted. I could not sleep, tried to watch mindless TV, tried to read, took a warm bath. Nothing seemed to help. Had an intense craving for PIZZA, my down fall. Especially Dominos or Pizza hut thin crust everything pizza. I use to be able to eat 1 whole pie by myself with a few glasses of wine or other alcoholic beverage. Then when it was gone, I would still remember the taste but also dreaded the outcome of what I have done. I can not eat just one piece, NO WAY. So no pizza for now and when I do allow one someday I am going to try to find a healthy one that may not have all the hidden junk in it. I will try to make my own but I don't have an oven so that might be tricky.
Well back to last night; I did go off my Fast 5, which yesterday was suppose to be eating only between 8am - 1pm. But I only ate what was on my Plan. I normally try to eat 10 raw almonds a day. I didn't eat them earlier in the day yesterday. So last night I ate the 10, then I tried to relax again.....couldn't still had that Pizza craving. I actually debated calling Dominos for delivery, but that meant I would have to get up, dressed and go down to the gate and let them in when they arrived AND it was raining (not hard, but hard enough). PLUS it was just an annoying craving and I kept talking to myself about it and why it wasn't good for me at this time. I think that helped a lot; THE TALKING, keep the lines of communication open especially with yourself, be true to you! Well I did get up and eat a bunch of fresh strawberries and the other 10 almonds I saved for today. Then I went to sleep. After awhile I did fall asleep but again it was not easy and last night was a difficult one for me. BUT to see the loss this morning was rewarding! I know if I had given in to the Pizza I would have blown it for last night AND today. Friends are going out today for beer and snacks. I might met them later for a walk on the beach but if I had given in last night, I would have gone for the beer and who knows what else and I know we would not have gone for that walk. SO today is a new day and last night was difficult BUT it is behind me and will not be ON MY BEHIND LOL! Today the Fast 5 will probably be 12-5, I think that will help with the night cravings!
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