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still in a bummer mood. Waking up to find mom in her room a mess didn't help. She gets up in the middle of the night takes all the protective pads off the bed, her personal pad out and just leaves them around. A mess. I'm so tired. Most of my clothes are tight, the scale doesn't move except to inch down a 1/2 then back up. Week 3 of clean eating. Today I'm going to start listed the foods also I'm calling the health food store to set up a consultation with the person that gave me the plan and go over it with him. My job really hasn't improved, I really don't like where I am in my life right now. No partner to share things with. I really don't know if I want or can be in a relationship after my engagement broke up just about this time last year. Granted it was probably for the best, he was looking for someone to take care of him in his old age and I really can't do that. He was attentive and I think cared about me as I him, but he was broke and would ask or maybe hint for (not borrow) money for cigarettes and beer. I really can't afford that! And at least my house did sell last year, but I'm still paying on the loan and have other things I'm paying off. I'm just so tired and don't understand what is going on with my body. It is a pain. I know it could be worse but it. But also it could be better. I just don't see any escape and time soon. I feel like I'm in prison. :-(
Diet Calendar Entry for 10 July 2013:
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1264 kcal
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Fat: 92.27g | Prot: 82.44g | Carb: 48.15g.
Breakfast: LouAna Coconut Oil, Coconut Oil, Winn-Dixie Natural Cage Free Eggs, Cooked Spinach (from Fresh), Winn-Dixie Natural Cage Free Eggs. Lunch: Merex Fresh Blueberries, Woodstock Farms Whole Organic Strawberries, Winn-Dixie Chicken Tenderloins. Dinner: Extra Virgin Olive Oil, Young Green Onions (Tops Only), Jason's Deli Cherry Tomatoes, Perdue Ground Chicken. Snacks/Other: Fresh & Easy Raw Sunflower Seed Kernels, Kirkland Signature Raw Almonds. more...
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