Starladesiree's Journal, 29 September 2010

I am sorry, I tried to make it back yesterday to comment back. LOL that does sound weird -the foods you had yesterday but I guess being sick is just worrying about getting better and eating anything you can manage. Ok, I am submitting this so you know I am here writting ... next topic 

As for the ex. I think you are on to something. Parents can really teach us a lot about a relationship. (even the bad stuff) It took me a long time to realize what I knew was all wrong. Fighting, abuse, trust, envy -even. Both of us have alcohilic fathers that our mothers had to divorce. Talk about up in statistics for divorce huh? My husband has been very patient. Well, we learned toghether, we grew (emotionaly and physicaly)-we married very young also. We both discovered we control this relationship, no one else does or will- so we chose to make the best of it if it was going to work. and just like that the little things didn't matter and the big things were easier to handle and the other stuff was just what it was.  

Its great that you two were able to go about your ways for some time to grow and 'explore'. I think it says something if you both feel something still. I also think that NO one is 100% perfect, no relationship is. You go back to ex, there will be something you won't like, something you will compare to Mark. Or another guy. And you won't ever be happy. You have to chose to make what you do chose, work. And just like that, loving becomes easier. Accepting becomes natural, little things won't matter and big things become easier to handle. Just like that.  

Yeah... It's tough. Really tough. I am glad to hear you and your hubby have worked through so much together. I love hearing that kind of stuff. It's just hard... I don't want to hurt anyone, but I think my heart really lies with my ex. I mean... you're right, to still have feelings this strong for each other? That's gotta mean something.