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21 March 2010

Making progress...little by little...which I know it's how it's supposed to be. Ready for another week. Still need to work on the exercise aspect. :)

Weigh-in: 242.4 lb

lost so far: 15.6 lb

still to go: 82.4 lb

Diet followed reasonably well

add comment losing 2.0 lb a week

19 March 2010

Okay...my big victory for today which shows the lifestyle change in place is the fact that my family is currently eating McDonalds and I am not!! This is very exciting. This has happened before but not often. Usually it's what throws me off track or brings me down but not today! I even had to go pick it up for everyone...in the drive-thru I was debating whether or not to get something small...a single burger (250 calories)...a snack wrap (not sure how many cals)...yogurt...SOMETHING...but I realized that there was really nothing that I wanted today so I passed. And the best part is that I passed happily...I don't feel at all deprived...and let's all be honest...those fries never tasted the same after they eliminated the trans fat from their fry oil. :)

Tonight's challenge: going to a friend's house for a BBQ. I just have to remind myself that I'm there for the friends, not the food. Oh, and I'm supposed to bring a dessert...I guess that's good because that means I get to control how healthy the dessert is, right?

UPDATE: So I just got home from my friends' house and made myself enter the food to the best of my ability. It turns out that it wasn't as easy to eat well as I thought it could/should be just because of what was being served BUT even though I went over my RDI, I did SOOO much better than I would have done on any other occasion in the past. In the past, I would have said, "Who cares? It's just one day...eat what you want." Today, I said, "The food isn't ideal, but it looks good...eat some, stop when you're full, and move on." That's what I did...and I'm sure I seriously ate 1/2 of what I would have eaten in the past so I'm happy. And I did truly enjoy what I was eating but didn't make myself leave with that I-ate-so-much-I'm-in-pain feeling. Also, on an "old me" day, I would have had the McDonald's AND over-indulged at the friends' house. Not the new me...and not today. :)

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17 March 2010

First of all, I want to say that I feel like my journals have had a negative tone for the past few entries and I don't mean them to be that way...but just sharing what's on my mind...which, isn't actually negative, but I'm certainly not in the super positive state I was in a week or so ago.

Some days I think that I'd like to just live...and make healthier eating choices and exercise more but stop recording every food I eat. Somehow being on a diet (I know, I know...a lifestyle change) makes me obsess about food. I don't want to become this obsessive...I just want to live and not CONSTANTLY think about what I'm going to eat or what I'm not going to eat or how I'm going to eat it or how I'm going to avoid eating it. It gets to be draining at times.

I was daydreaming this morning about ending my relationship with FS and my buddies on it for a while and seeing if I could just live and lose weight by making healthier choices but without counting every calorie. I just don't really like the obsession it's become (and always seems to become every time I take on this challenge).

HOWEVER, I know that I'll be most successful here. I know that holding myself accountable and getting inspiration from everyone on FS is what is going to make me reach my goal this time. I know that I've already gone down the "I just want to live" path many times and while it hasn't always been a disaster, it certainly can be...and I've never gotten to my goal that way.

So here I am...trying to strike a balance between healthful eating and the obsession with food that ensues when I embark on making positive food changes.

I know that I've had some of the best lifestyle change days while participating on this site. I know that I've truly made some changes that are going to stick with me. I know that having support of others is key. I know that having the MOTIVATION from others who are actually at or near their goal is priceless.

I just have to get back to that place that I was a week or so ago...when I felt so in control and on top of the world. I'll get there again...I know.

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15 March 2010

This is a day that I definitely did NOT want to enter everything I ate. I SERIOUSLY considered not doing so but then I knew that I needed to and that burying my head in the sand and trying to hide what I ate from myself is not going to do me any good. It's so easy to record what I eat on good days but so hard to do it on so called "bad" days. It turns out that I actually thought it would be worse than it is. My caloric intake is above where it should be but it could be worse...and at least I'm making myself face the music and getting mentally prepared for a better day tomorrow. The past three days haven't been perfect and after so many great days, it's a little disappointing. I know I can get back on track and re-focused though. Tomorrow is the day. One thing I do know is that being tired makes eating well so much harder. This is the second time in the past three days that I have felt that my eating has been a result of feeling exhausted.

Okay...that was very rambly but it's a journal so I guess I don't have to worry about paragraphing and sentence structure tonight.

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14 March 2010

Happy with the loss...always wish it could be more BUT a loss is a loss and it's better than the alternative. :)

Weigh-in: 244.4 lb

lost so far: 13.6 lb

still to go: 84.4 lb

Diet followed reasonably well

(4 comments) losing 1.6 lb a week

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