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I attended a women's retreat at One* Church last evening and had drank a serving of wine to relax before going to the event. I added a half "serving" of huckleberry syrup to my iced tea just to give it a little sweetness. (I heard 1 pump is a serving, and I saw women putting more than that in their teas, but they weren't as obese as me). I felt content spiritually and physically from the event and began to crave the crackers and cheese after the hosts welcomed the audience to eat more and mingle at the end. Then, I consumed more simple carbs (sugar) after coming home and purged, not wanting to gain back weight lost from the excess calories. The scale hasn't changed this morning, but I still feel guilty for the self-destructive behavior.
I think the wine and sugar in the syrup triggered my addict brain because I even argued in my head why I shouldn't consume more, and I gave into cravings anyway. This experience confirms why I need to continue to eliminate sugar, including alcohol, from my diet. I don't know if it's for life, so I'm going to resist it one day at a time.
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232.0 lb
Lost so far: 3.4 lb.
Still to go: 102.0 lb.
Diet followed reasonably well.
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Diet Calendar Entry for 18 March 2023:
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1331 kcal
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Fat: 58.12g | Prot: 71.96g | Carb: 131.48g.
Breakfast: Lee Kum Kee Sriracha Chili Sauce, Pepper Jack Cheese, Apple Barn Apple Butter, Whole Wheat Bread, Cooked Tomatoes, Cooked Green Peppers and Onions (Fat Added in Cooking), Good Earth Sweet and Spicy Tea, Egg. Lunch: Dole Dark Sweet Cherries, Panda Express Mandarin Teriyaki Sauce, Cooked Broccoli (Fat Not Added in Cooking), Wild Rice (Cooked), Grilled Fish. Dinner: Cucumbers, Tomatoes, Red Onions, Olives, Feta or Mozzarella Cheese, Parsley, Lemon Juice, Olive Oil, Chili Peppers, Salt, Red Salsa, Light Tortilla Corn Chips, Trader Joe's Olive Oil & Lemon Juice, Chicken Leg (Skin Eaten). Snacks/Other: Bavarian Meats Lil’ Landjaeger, Tropical Trail Mix . more...
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steady weight
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