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A lot's been going on in other fronts, honestly I've not focused on self control with food at all. However, during the day I tend to do well. It's the evening when things fall apart. I just stop caring if I feel stressed about other things and "reward" myself with emotional eating to cope. (Not sure if it's more of a, "you deserve to enjoy this ___ you want right now" or "you have enough that you are dealing with, don't bother holding back here; give in, it's not THAT bad.") Granted there are a lot of self destructive things I am not doing, it doesn't mitigate the damage so much from the things I do, only dampens the conviction of guilt.
Today is a new day. We'll see how I do. I feel like G-d has been using other situations to test me to help me grow in faith. I believe this will help me overcome my lack of discipline here also. He is MY strength today, I will not be moved/ overwhelmed/ immobilized by shame and self condemnation. Through Him, I will prevail.
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Wow, I can relate so much to what you wrote. I've been a compulsive/emotional eater for probably all my life, my mother says when she fed me as a baby I'd scream and cry in the time it took to get the spoon out of my mouth, reload it, and shovel it back in. As an adult, especially at night, I'd prowl the kitchen, opening the pantry or refrigerator every few minutes as if some new food would have magically materialized since I checked it 5 minutes ago. Eating had nothing to do with being hungry and the evenings were the most difficult.
From what you wrote I think you realize this but I just want to confirm: Shame and self-condemnation don't come from God, they come from the Devil. You've got the right mindframe, hang in there and trust in Him. :) Philippians 4:13
04 Jun 14 by member: jmb3450
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Yes. Food is a real vice. Easily overlooked and downplayed; unlike other, more OBVIOUS vices like *drugs* or alcohol.
Reading your post, you sound like you're in the right place mentally and spiritually. You can, and will, gain self-control with food.
04 Jun 14 by member: alowe82
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Thanks! And you are right JMB, G-d will convict us (for our benefit and not to our shame). G-d's will is not to condemn us. :)
04 Jun 14 by member: MrsTofu
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