Snowwhite100's Journal, 22 July 2021

Today is our 60th Wedding Anniversary. Yesterday my husband had a needle biopsy of his extremely swollen lymph node under his jaw. This is very scary to me, and it will be next week before we get results. I have been with him since I was 16, and he has been the love of my life. Even though things have been up and down I can't imagine living without him and don't even want to. We are going out to dinner tonight and I will eat whatever I want, which is actually what I have been doing most of the time this last month. If he has cancer that is spreading there's really no telling which way my weight will go. He isn't a candidate for surgery because of his heart failure but feels he has lived a good life. Now at 85, with many health problems, he probably won't even change his way of eating, take chemo, or have radiation. I'm imagining the worst.

121.4 lb Lost so far: 0 lb.    Still to go: 3.8 lb.    Diet followed poorly.