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It may not seem like a big deal, but I am really happy about this weigh in. First off, this is after breakfast, fully clothed and wearing boots. :) !!! Last week or so I took a peak at my weight on my home scale and it said I was around 170lb again. I was a little disappointed, but I didn't register that because there was a lot going on and I think I was having issues logging into the site so I wasn't going to stress about it. A couple days ago I took another peak, and it seemed to say the same thing. However this was an analog scale and my daughter helped me to realize that it wasn't zeroed out correctly so it was reading ~3-5lb heavier than it was supposed to. (My daughter was very proud of being 40lbs. It took her at least a year to get on the growth charts, and now she's about average for her age. She is always looking to show off how much she's growing, how big and strong she is. :) ) This was encouraging for me because I know I have been doing much better with eating. I haven't eaten to the point of "being stuffed" in a while, and I am getting better at stopping when I no longer feel hungry- or at least realizing that I've reached that point.
I think I like also that I have been more relaxed about this and things aren't getting out of control. I almost feel like G-d has been specifically helping to "lighten the load" for me with my relationship with food. It may sound odd, but from a Biblical theological perspective I can see that it was a form of idolatry for me, the way I relied on food for comfort and would overindulge in food for pleasure. It wasn't good for my body- sometimes it made my body physically hurt- and I know it wasn't good for my soul either. I did it because it was habit and my dependence was more on food than on G-d, more on my ability to do for me than in trusting Him to help me overcome.
The past two weeks have been personally challenging for me on the homefront. A little project wound up being a lot bigger. We took a non load bearing interior wall down to open up our living space. That went fine and I am glad we did it. However, it uncovered some significant health and structural issues. DH ended up having to tear out the floor in most of our house and replace the subfloor under it. Our girls and I stayed with his mom while he did most of that work himself. He is really talented and hard working, so I know that things are a huge improvement for his efforts. I love my MIL, so living with her wasn't difficult for the girls and me. She helped my older daughter get to school and I hung out at the house, taking care of the baby, and helped with chores here and there.
DH got the subfloor in place and the house safe enough for the girls and I to come home, but there's still a lot of work left to do. I am glad I can kind of laugh about it, because it is both challenging and humorous to have my kitchen, living room and dining room entirely displaced. (Most things are in the kids' room, basement, shed, or front porch. I set up a toaster oven to cook with inside, but my fridge is in front of my house on the front porch and my dishwasher, range and kitchen sink are no longer hooked up. It makes me feel like a wannabe Mennonite. I know I would almost certainly fail at being Amish. I am so dependent on electricity to help me cook and clean, chores already take a lot of time having those luxuries to help, I don't know how I'd manage without electricity. Though, if ever G-d really wants that from me, I know He'll find a way to make it happen. :P :) )
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162.0 lb
Lost so far: 10.0 lb.
Still to go: 32.0 lb.
Diet followed reasonably well.
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losing 0.8 lb a week
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