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Good morning buddies!
I have been failing miserably at staying on plan despite trying to maintain a positive outlook. Haven't ruined today though, so I plan on trying to hold onto it and stick to my calorie goals. Intake is seventy five percent of the battle.
It was a stressful and crappy weekend, which was disappointing as I'm in clinicals next weekend so I really wanted to be able to enjoy my time off. The food doesn't help, I think at this point we have all realized that. It's almost like I do it just to hurt myself and reward myself all at the same time. It's funny how one week eating on plan can be so damn easy and the next week feel so impossible. It's all in our heads. Regardless of the last week or so of rogue behavior I can change all of that today and I intend to. I probably wont weigh in Friday though lol.
(This might be TMI for some, read at your own risk) So yesterday I had my yearly 'woman' exam. My birth control implant is a couple weeks from expiration. The nurse informed me that a student was rounding with the doctor and asked if it was okay that she be in the room. Of course, being a student myself I agreed. What she didn't tell me was that the student was doing the exam. So I learned that it must take years of practice to acquire a gentleness because that freakin hurt. I was patient and kind. I could tell the student was nervous and probably doesn't get a lot of practice because people will often tell student to eff off. That karma had better pay off when I do my IV therapy day lol. So next week the implant is coming out and I'm choosing to use the pill until my husband and I decide one way or the other on a third child.
Lately I have been feeling stressed out financially. It has been a rough year thus far and it's not looking like it's going to get a whole lot better. I'm still contemplating sitting for the STNA certification exam and seeing if I can find some part time employment doing that through the remainder of my schooling. It would get me established somewhere, provide some extra income, and boost my confidence in the field. I've never worked in a nursing home and I'm not entirely sure that's where I want to work but the only way to find out is by doing. In a couple of weeks my student loan disbursement will be out and I will have the money to pay for the exam. I could have taken it by now, just couldn't afford to. I've also been thinking about continuing my education post graduation in an LPN to RN program. I need to slow myself down and be successful at one thing before I go jumping to the next.
This weekend is second shift clinical, 1:45-10pm. I am looking forward to seeing what a second shift schedule consists of. Perhaps that's the shift for me as I hate early mornings :)
Okay, I'm off to find a way to get my activity in and plan out my meals for the day.
Thanks for reading, have a great day buddies!
Diet Calendar Entries for 15 September 2015:
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1201 kcal
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Fat: 55.35g | Prot: 56.38g | Carb: 119.17g.
Breakfast: Millville Protein Chewy Bars - Peanut, Dark Chocolate & Almond, Dannon Light & Fit Greek - Strawberry, Coffee-Mate Original Powder Creamer. Lunch: Clancy's Original Potato Chips, Oscar Mayer Light Beef Bologna Cold Cuts, Great Value Wheat Sandwich Bread, Hellmann's Light Mayonnaise. Dinner: Imperial Stick Butter, Egg, Great Value Wheat Sandwich Bread, loaded hash browns 4.7oz serving. more...
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Sounds like you're dealing with a lot 'on your plate' right now and I don't think it's any coincidence that that expression is inextricably linked to food . . . try to focus on one thing at a time and 'compartmentalize/prioritize' if possible, concentrating on the most pressing items. Sweet that you were patient with the student at the expense of your own comfort.
15 Sep 15 by member: losinit1655
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LOL - yes, we often find ourselves in that place. I had waited six weeks to get in to see my fabulous ENT and she did not come in the room - a fourth year medical student did my exam...I of course said, "yes as long as I see Dr. Boyer, too." The student did well but diagnosed me incorrectly...
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75%? I thought it was 95%. Oh well. I read on the Internet that 90% of all statistics on the Internet are made up on the spot. Maybe I just made that up. It doesn't matter. ;)
15 Sep 15 by member: northernmusician
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Wow, I completely know where you're coming from! One week can be great and the next week we just can't get it together. I'm glad you're taking control and getting back on track. It sounds like the stress and anxiety may be playing a role in some of those eating issues too. How much school do you have left? You do so well in school that I imagine that even if you had a job you would still do well, but it's a hard decision because you don't want to start a job and then quit in a few weeks because you're so stressed out. I'm sure you'll make the right decision for you. Get that activity in and de-stress!
15 Sep 15 by member: mars2kids
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And here I was thinking everything on the internet was true. Crap, NM. Mary, I graduate next June. My concern is what you mentioned, taking on a new job and not being able to make it work due to being stretched too thin. Last year about this time I took on that third shift hotel job and it was a nightmare. *Sigh* I guess as soon as the kids are back in school I feel like I should be doing more, then I end up overwhelming myself. Something to remember.
15 Sep 15 by member: Annabelle3117
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Glen, I was remembering the kind lady that allowed me to put a catheter in her when I was an unsure and unprepared rookie, paying it back so to speak ;)
16 Sep 15 by member: Annabelle3117
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16 Sep 15 by member: millerm40
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I remember being checked while in labor and the young kid was so off on how far I was dilated, but I was patient and the doc was patient and he finally got it right and thankfully it didn't hurt...Good luck to you and your future patients!
16 Sep 15 by member: iulani
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