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Hey buddies,
I haven't written here for quite some time.
Things have changed in my life, and I don't know how to deal with change and emotions still.
I have decided to quit my job. Tomorrow is gonna be my last working day.
It is tough. Tomorrow I have to present some results and I am still not finished with the slides.
It has been tough to admit this job is not for me. The stress I absorb it way more than all the advantages I get back.
Still, it's tough to admit my failure... this seemed to be the perfect job, and I haven't felt happy or OK a single day since I have started working there. I really cannot focus anymore when I am sitting at that desk.
I know, I can see this as an opportunity to find out a new profession that makes me feel happy, gives me some sense of accomplishment instead of pure frustration.
I see I need anon-desk job, at least as the next job.
I have been forcing myself to go to the office every day, kept on working on a project I really did not care or like, now I am paying. I feel empty, I feel like none of the things I know I like sounds interesting or fun.
I have stopped going to the climbing gym, swimming, taking pictures, enjoying staying in a park and even hiking.
I feel like I am not able to enjoy anything.
I want to have a break before starting a new job or committing to anything.
This sense of emptiness is pretty strong.
I know somehow things are going to be better in a few months, but at this moment I feel like everything is falling apart in my own world.
I express this with my overeating raptuses. It is my kind of "self punishment" for not being good enough.
I see my past few years and I see I failed so many times.
Left this job and my past one. Ended badly my marriage.
My family is shrinking more and more, and I cannot do much.
I hope I will feel better in the next days.
My partner is supporting me a lot... especially by taking away from me the big package of Ben and Jerry's before I finish eating all of it.
I will try to go through my slideshow for tomorrow.
And maybe go in the nearby town on Wednesday for some retail therapy :)
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My desktop calendar just had the words "Failure provides us the opportunity to learn and grow."
16 Jun 14 by member: jparlett
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Calendar is right. Thanks for the comforting words :)
16 Jun 14 by member: Lizzie983
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this is exactly how I feel today, you're not alone....somehow knowing we feel the same makes me feel a little less blah :)
16 Jun 14 by member: Socolova
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"So now, all alone or not, you gotta walk ahead. Thing to remember is if we're all alone, then we're all together in that too." From PS I love you :)
16 Jun 14 by member: Socolova
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I feel the same way. I understand on OfficeSpace how he just decided to go into construction. I'm looking for something myself.
16 Jun 14 by member: Torzie206
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We have missed you but I am glad your back today. I do hope you find something that does make you happy, because that is what life is all about. Like you said take some time for yourself and relax and regroup. Time to start enjoying life again my friend :)
16 Jun 14 by member: SherrieC
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I love that top quote! I don't want you to think I am hijacking this post, but just happened read that you may be in need of a new job opportunity and I may have one for you. I am an independent distributor for It Works Global... we sell those crazy wrap things. I am always looking to add people to my team. This is not a scam.. work from home, set your own hours, get paid well. You gotta work, but it's worth the benefit of being your own boss and setting your own hours. To find out more, go to www.rebeccasfitwraps.myitworks.com or find Rebecca's Fit Wraps on Facebook. You can also email me at rebeccasfitwraps@outlook.com. I would love to talk to anyone interested. It may not be for you, but it doesn't hurt to find out! Hope to hear from you!
16 Jun 14 by member: rmreed75
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Lizzie, be gentle with yourself. You have had such a lot on your plate recently. Have you had any time to think about yourself? Try and schedule in a few of the things you know you like and do them even if you don't feel like it. It is always worth it. Good luck. I hope you get your Mojo back soon.
16 Jun 14 by member: Mamachickpea
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Do you have a new job lined up yet?
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