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Reasons I wanted to lost the weight. I've seen other people posts list like this for motivational purposes, I'm doing it more as a confession.
- I didn't want to be the 'fat' mom. My daughter had hinted around not wanting me to be at some of her school functions. She never said it, but I knew why, and it crushed me.
- At a birthday party last summer at my cousins house, when I sat down on the picnic table beside my husband the bench broke. They told me that that particular side was 'the bad side' and that they had meant to turn it. In that moment, I would have gladly welcomed a stoke.
- My husband has been bugging me the entire length of our relationship to go to Cedar Point and ride the roller coasters. I always made excuses about money, or just not liking crowds, but in all reality I was terrified I wouldn't fit.
- Same thing with zip lining. On our honeymoon my husband desperately wanted to try zip lining, but I saw the weight limit was 250, so I made more excuses about why we couldn't.
- I have been made fun of literally my entire life about my weight, by bullies in school, my uncles, my brother (as children), My cousins, even by my own father. I'm sick of being the joke. The bullying in high school was so bad that I dropped out my freshman year, and attempted suicide shortly thereafter.
- I have overcome every obstacle put before me. Dropping out of high school, being a teenage mother, finding love and having a happy marriage, a successful career, my weight was the only thing I hadn't been able to conquer. It was time.
I have found a new sense of self since I started going to the gym, and controlling my eating habits. I feel worthy of success. And for the first time in my life, when I say fuck the haters and their opinions, I actually mean it. It was hard to admit all of this to myself and to all of you, but it helps me to see my real progress, and how far I've come emotionally, not just physically. As always, thank you for your support :-) God bless!
Diet Calendar Entries for 04 October 2013:
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1246 kcal
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Fat: 32.16g | Prot: 61.82g | Carb: 164.42g.
Breakfast: Coffee-Mate Fat Free Original Liquid Coffee Creamer, Coffee-Mate Fat Free French Vanilla Liquid Coffee Creamer, Quaker Instant Oatmeal - Lower Sugar Apples & Cinnamon, Yoplait Greek 100 Yogurt - Vanilla. Lunch: Chicken Dark Meat (Roasting), Minute Multi-Grain Rice Medley. Dinner: Kraft Cucumber Ranch Salad Dressing & Dip, Great Value Seasoned Fries, Lowfat Frankfurter or Hot Dog, Fred Meyer Hot Dog Bun. Snacks/Other: Apples. more...
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3460 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Weight Training (moderate) - 20 minutes, Exercise machine (fast) - 45 minutes, Resting - 14 hours and 55 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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